So today I was supposed to be off and was having a lot of car trouble so I was going to drop my car off to get checked. I was disappointed thinking I wouldn't make it to the gym today and had settled for doing a half hour on my treadmill and a half hour on my stationary bike. But things changed and I ended up having to work. I had planned my breakfast and lunch last night but had to change things around due to time constrictions. So my breakfast was a bowl of Kashi cereal with half a cup of soy milk and half a banana which came to 239 calories with 17 grams of protein. Less than I like to but I wasn't strength training today and went a little easier because the 6 mile run and strength training yesterday took a lot out of me. I forgot to take a picture of it because I was tryign to eat fast because I had to get to the gym and get home to go to work. I was called in.
So when I got back from the gym I had nothing to make to take with me and didn't want to make eggs and bring them so I made myself an egg white and broccoli omelet. It was my first attempt with broccoli and eggs. I had some leftover steamed broccoli in a baggie so I put a cup in the omelet with one teaspoon of fat free parmesan and holy toledo was it delicious. The whole omelet with the cheese and wrap came to 242 calories with 35 grams of protein. As usual I ate some before remembering to take a picture lol.
So at work I was thrown off a little because I usually don’t work Wednesdays and today I actually feel ill. I usually feel great when I work out in the morning. I went to the gym and did an elliptical for an hour keeping my heart rate at 165 burned about 600 calories. Usually that gets me pumped but I felt so weak and tired today. Literally to the point where doing a haircut was exhausting. I sat down in the back and felt like I could fall asleep. And I’d gotten a lot of sleep and I was eating hearty meals. So I made an appointment with my doctor tomorrow. I do have the Epstein Bar virus and every few months it will catch up with me and I’ll be really tired and weak for about a week or so then it fades and I feel normal again. I’ve felt like this for about a week now, and it really pissed me off when we were in AC because I was falling asleep at like 10 at night. But even right now watching Oprah I was like dozing off. So other than load up on coffee, I know they’ll tell me to get plenty of rest, eat lots of fruits and vegetables (if they only knew HOW MUCH I eat. I love when doctors say “you’re not eating enough fruit”. REALLY? I eat 1 sometimes 2 apples a day, usually a banana every day, and guaranteed grapes or strawberries after dinner. Lol). But the other thing that I kind of know they will say is not to run or do vigorous exercise. I guess when the virus acts up it enlarges your spleen and I totally notice swelling in my upper abdomen that they always say is related. Theres a chance if you were to slip and fall you could burst your spleen. I don’t run outside right now because of the weather so I feel okay to run on the treadmill. Still kind of freaks me out though.
Anyway when I got out of work at 5 I was STARVING. I ran into Foodtown to get my Shirataki noodles. They’re the only store nearby that has them and they’re only 2 dollars so I bought 4 bags and was walking by the rotisserie chickens and was drawn like a zombie. They just looked delicious and the idea of going food shopping then having to take the time to grill and possibly thaw some chicken was horrible. So I grabbed one. 5$ will probably get us two maybe 3 meals. So I munched on an apple on the way to the food store and got my usual oranges, apples, broccoli, carrots, peppers, spinach, and such. I also got some ingredients because tomorrow I am going to attempt to make my own spaghetti sauce and homemade eggplant parmesan. I had tried once before and it was a severe epic fail coming out disgusting. But my girlfriend who is also obsessed with calories and exercise gave me her fail proof recipe that involves no frying or breading. So tomorrow that’s my project!
I finally made it home without eating the steering wheel and let me tell you it was an effort not to rip a leg off that chicken on my way home. It smelled so good in my car. I was able to hold out while I cooked my vegetable stir fry and shirataki noodles and finally had my wonderful, beautiful, hot steaming plate of goodness. The calorie count came to 287. I did take a few bites of the chicken as I was tearing it off the bone so I knew I ate closer to 6 ounces which is fine, I need the protein. The noodles filled up the plate more than the veggies so I knew at most I had 2 cups of vegetables. And I used a little chicken seasoning and the noodles absorbed that great so it was wonderfully tasty and delicious. Dinner held 46 grams of protein which is fantastic. My protein total for the day is 108 which is the lower range of my recommended on spark but also not too shabby either. I had some almonds in yogurt as a snack to try to boost my protein also because I didn’t feel well thinking it would help, but it didn’t. Anyway here’s dinner.
So to sum it up, getting back to the strict calorie counting of losing weight again is a good and bad feeling. It’s good because I feel VERY much in control so I know If I don’t lose it’s not because of what I ate. It’s also exhausting trying to pre-plan everything. Friday I am starting school (if it doesn’t snow) and I will be out of the house from probably 9AM until 9PM at night because I go to work from class. So it will be a day where I really need to pack a big cooler of food because I’ll need to have lunch snacks AND dinner with me. I already have a plan of attack in mind it just depends on whether I have school or not because of the weather. So yes it gets exhausting but I know it’s worth it. Like, I know I can eat between 200-500 calories tonight before I reach my max limit. I don’t like to reach my limit. I’ll probably try to have a cup of coffee and if I really want something an orange to help boost my vitamin C in case I am getting sick with the flu rather than Epstein bar. But yeah it’s frustrating because I could go for an ice cream pop especially since I’m getting my period in a few days. But I know I don’t want it because I’m trying to lose. If I was simply maintaining I’d probably have that and a bag of 100 calorie popcorn and some coffee because I knew it wouldn’t effect me much. So in other words, yeah losing again is tough but I like it. I like the feeling of knowing I’m in control. Anyway have a great night everyone. I’ll shut up now!
PS: I wanna thank everyone for their encouragement and for simply commenting. It means so much to know someones listening. It really keeps me sane!