I did it
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I'm shaking like a leaf, but I did it. I called to make my appointment for a therapist.
A bit of background, beyond what I blogged the other day. One day last month, I finally got the nerve to call one of the local therapists that are supposed to be covered by my insurance. They shuttled me around a bit, then set an intake appointment in the downtown office. I went to the appointment and talked to the woman there. She said she would try to get me set up at the office 2 minutes from my apartment, rather than me having to go all the way downtown to have my appointments. They were supposed to contact me by the end of the week to set up an appointment. If they didn't call by that Friday, I was supposed to call them back. Needless to say, they didn't call. And my phone phobia kept me from calling them. I kept having worst case scenarios go through my brain - they'll be short with me and tell me that I shouldn't be bothering them, that I need to go through the main office no matter what anyone else said. And the longer the time went, the harder it became because then I became afraid they'd tell me I had to go through intake again.
So it kept getting put off because of my major phone phobia. Rich was getting worried enough that he was going to take a day off of work to hold my hand while I called. But having been productive today in other aspects (more about that in a bit), I decided that I had my wallet with the number in my pocket and I had the phone next to me, so I'd try calling.
I got the woman's voice mail, and I'm sure that the message I left was rambling (it's one of the things that I do when I'm nervous... I'm even doing it now while I'm typing because the nerves are still there). But the point is, I left a message. I left my name and my number. The ball is back in their court. I'm giving them until Monday to call. If they don't call by then... hopefully I'll be able to get the courage up to call again, this time to the person I did the intake with. But at least it's a start. And starts are better than stops.