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My first ever vlog

Sunday, January 16, 2011

So I decided to do another thing that scares me and that is to post a vlog. You can hide behind words but you can't hide in a video and part of getting past my self hatred and fear of photos is confronting them. So here I am with my new haircut. I thought a lot about doing my hair and putting on a bunch of makeup and then I decided I wanted to show you the real me. I hope you like it.
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    You are absolutely stunning. *hugs* Love the video blog!
    3292 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/22/2011 12:17:45 PM
    Hey Ashley, Great vlog! Thanks so much for opening up to us and trusting us. SparkFamilies are Wonderful!!
    3294 days ago
    Hi Ashley, I'm a very private person, so I wish i had the guts to put myself "out there" like you are gorgeous! I love reading your blogs and your vlog was even better...i love how analytical you are, how self reflective and I think the vlog showed me how gorgeous you are!
    3296 days ago
    Thanks Ashley! It is so cool to get to "know" you on a different level. I read your blogs all the time and it is nice to know who is truly behind them. I am sorry that you have been struggling the last while. I am sure that a big part of it is the emotional piece of being so close to the half way mark (or should I say at it now!) Our minds act in mysterious ways which I am convinced has a direct impact on how our bodies respond. You will pass this stage and weight and your journey will continue with much success. I am sure of it. Just hang in there and keep making positive choices when you can and keep looking forward. You truly look great by the way! ~ Karen
    3296 days ago
    Wow... it makes such a difference listening to/watching a vlog than reading a blog. I think this was awesome - I will get brave one of these days!
    3296 days ago
    I think you did great for your first vlog! I stuttered a lot on mine lol. P.S. You're beautiful. And I don't like walking up ladders either! We just put our christmas stuff away yesterday. It was great hearing you talk about your clean eating and how it makes you feel. This was just on my mind. I went to the grocery store today. Yes, I did throw some junk in there (fish sticks, corn dogs, etc.)... but for the most part, I bought a TON of veggies and fruits (pears, apples, bananas, eggplant, tomatoes, even cactus!)... and a year or so ago, that wouldn't have happened! It would have been frozen pizza all the way. But now... buying the fresh stuff is such a habit... I actually MISS it and think "god there's nothing good to eat" when i'm out. its nice... this change... i'm sticking with it too!
    3296 days ago
    Loved your vlog. I love your honesty. I love you showed us you. You are beautiful. Thank you for sharing. I am guilty of blogging positive things even when I'm not feeling positive at all, so I appreciate you pointing that out. It's so true. I want to be more true to myself this year.
    Thanks again for sharing. Congrats on your weight loss thus far. I am rooting for you!!!
    3296 days ago
    Very nicely stated. I love the honesty felt in this!! Keep it up, frustrating as it may be you can do it.
    3297 days ago
    I'm not saying this becasue I think you want to hear it. I'm saying it because it is the truth. You are an absolutely precious, precious, precious young woman!!! You look fantastic! I love the new do!

    I am so glad you did this vlog. I love that you put yourself out there for all of us to see! And thank you for your honesty--you said so many things that mirror me.

    I am so very proud of you.
    3297 days ago
    You're BEAUTIFUL! If I had my earphones I would listen but I am at work and will have to wait until I get home. :)
    3297 days ago
    Thanks everybody. What is weird is I think I look so different from this angle than in real life. My jaw is not quite as big as this looks. I look better from an above angle.
    3297 days ago
    Congrats on your first Vblog. Great job. Your honesty is appreciated and love the new haircut.
    3297 days ago
    Your Beautiful. emoticon emoticon for sharing your story. You are doing emoticon ! emoticon
    3297 days ago
    Awesome vlog! Good for you keeping it real, and I agree, we can talk all we want, but we want the scale to go down.

    I'm rooting for you!
    3297 days ago
    First, thanks for your comment on my status, I am feeling great! You blog was true to the heart. It's not always easy and we do seem to sometimes make is seem that way. I have been sick so I haven't been able to exercise, which I just started. I may try a video blog one day..haha..I need to get up the courage. You did a great job!
    3297 days ago
    Great vlog!
    3297 days ago
    ha, for some reaon i imagined your voice much higher-pitched. Loved seeing you :-)
    3297 days ago

    Cute haircut! You look awesome. I know what you mean about self-sabotaging relationships or eating plans. I believe in you! I know you can break this plateau. Would it help if I double-dog dared you to move that scale by 1 pound by the end of the month? Just kidding - no pressure. I need to get serious about what I'm eating. While recovering from foot surgeries, I've been careless about what I'm eating - feeling sorry for myself, self-sabotaging. We can do this, Ash!
    3297 days ago
  • RIGBY31
    First... Gorgeous (love your bangs). And the honesty in your vlog is true to your words (blogs). Love that you just said it.. it is what is is! Moving forward (scale) will happen when you kick it into gear with the fitness. And eating clean and healthy is key, I believe as well. You're so honest, Ashley. And I love that!
    3297 days ago
    I love the VLOG Ashley! So nice to talk to you!! You and me, we are in the same annoying position with this lack of progress. We can do it tho, lets just keep on going and bust this thing! Dang, now I am gonna have to do a Vlog. Maybe when I hit the 60 pound thing I will do one...
    3297 days ago
    Thank you for sharing yourself with us, Ashley! I really enjoyed getting to know you better! I hope you get through your plateau soon....I know you will! :) And I like your side bangs!
    3297 days ago
  • EPIPHANY77718
    Thank you for sharing yourself with us all! That took courage! You look awesome and I am loving your hair! emoticon
    3297 days ago
    Thanks soooo must for doing this vlog and really spilling you guts. What an awesome why to get to know the real you and to see you in person. You are amazing. Such courange in shareing your true self.
    keeep up the good work and don't forget to love yourself, you have done so well.
    Love you
    3297 days ago
    Awesome vlog! emoticon Your bangs look great, by the way. I am sure you can get through this plateau. Thank you for being you. emoticon
    3297 days ago
    emoticon I echo your sentiment regarding self sabotage. emoticon emoticon
    3297 days ago
    What a courageous thing you did! Thank you so much for posting! I think you're beautiful, and I have no doubts that you will bust through that plateau when you're ready.
    3297 days ago
    Thank YOU for putting yourself out there! I know this is the beginning of a new change for you ;-)
    You are breaking through that plateau as we speak! Again, thanks, and it is nice to hear you and learn a little more about you emoticon
    3297 days ago
    OMG!Love the V-log! I have to chime in w/the chorus & say you sound just as I imagined! Too cool! Love the long bangs girl! Woot!

    I have the same frustrations, I haven't lost weight in 4 months!! It's a new year though, with the golden opportunity to create what we desire! Not sure if you are already doing this, but you might want to add C25k training to your workouts and set a goal to run your first 5k this year. Training by running is one of the best ways to see your body change.
    3297 days ago
    It was so nice to SEE you my friend! You sound much like I imagined! Very very nice vlog! I look forward to many more!

    emoticon Rose
    3297 days ago
  • HOPE2011
    Thank you for sharing. Thanks to your bravery, I'm going to be honest with my blogs and share ALL the parts of my journey. I know it helps me, but as you said, maybe it will help others too.

    3297 days ago
    Awesome vlog Ashley!! I'm so glad to get to see the real you and hear your voice! You're right, it really does make you seem more "real" to us in virtual-world!!
    It's so brave of you to just sit in front of that camera and say what comes naturally! I've thought of doing a vlog for a while, but I'm just way too chicken!!
    3297 days ago
    Great vlog! You put your *real* self out there ~ fears, insecurities, goals and thoughts. Thank you for BEING YOU!

    I really feel like your work situation is eating away at you which could be the cause of your self-sabotaging. Are you considering a job change? You're young and have your whole future ahead of you... Don't stay in places that aren't good for you.

    Thank you for all you are, and especially for the opportunity of really seeing, hearing and appreciating you on a new level.

    3297 days ago
    Thank you so much for being so candid and honest in your Vlog. You are very brave to face your worries and doubts. Everything you talked about touched me. I constantly edit myself on Sparkpeople b/c like you said, I want to act like I have everything together. I hate blogging about another set back but it's reality and it's okay. It's my truth and I have to be okay with that and be honest. I hope that whatever the block is for you right now that you will be able to move past it. I loved seeing who you are on this video and think you are amazing!
    3297 days ago
    What a wonderful way to communicate with us... loved it. You seem like a person who would be so easy to talk to IRL. It sounds like you're in a very stressful and frustrating situation right now and I hope vlogging helped at at least blow off some steam. You are right that it's all about loving yourself and taking care of yourself... just keep doing that and we'll be right here if you need us!
    3297 days ago
  • ALOFA0509

    Loved your Vlog!! Your voice is exactly how I imagined it.. Calm, very friendly.. Oh and can I say you are Rockin the Long Layers!!! love the cut.. Your Beautiful Ash!!-
    3297 days ago
    I just had a great response written to you and *poof*, gone.

    So here is the summary: Your truth is beautiful. YOU are beautiful.
    3297 days ago
  • EVLOBOS310
    emoticon vlog! Thanks for sharing!
    3297 days ago
    Great vlog! It really is a treat to see the way you talk, because you do wonder about what people are really like. I'm sorry the scale hasn't been budging for two months. I had a problem like that for a while, lose a pound, gain a pound, this repetition. It's very frustrating! I read that our bodies tries to keep some equilibrium to things by trying to keep us at the same weight. I hope you can overcome that soon. Your work might be contributing to that, with the stress, stress hormones. Try to find something you enjoy, for your exercise. Is there anything you've always wanted to try out? I'm doing the 10 Minute Fitness Streak Challenge, you might consider that, when you decide to start.
    3297 days ago
  • TERRYT55
    Hi are brave! Someday I will be too. I loved this and feel like I know you even better now.

    I just mentioned to my husband that your voice sounded just like I imagined it would, very pleasant and soothing. A sweet voice.

    I'm already looking forward to your future vlogs.
    3297 days ago
  • ERIN4771
    oh miss ashley!!! what a great REAL vlog!!! you sound awesome( where's that boston accent lady?) you haircut looks great, and you have such an amazing laugh (you should do that more often).... emoticon .....i know you are scared, we all are, but, the 79 pounds you have lost is only the beginning, and even though you have been stuck at the same number for the past 2 months (which happens to all of us btw) you haven't given up!!! that is HUGE!!! keep doing what you are doing, tracking, exercising etc, and in now time that number will move on the scale, i promise you my the mean time, please remember, i think you are pretty awesome, and have so much to offer and look forward to your blogs and updates!!!! emoticon
    3297 days ago
    I just watched it. Man i wouldn't like being stuck for that long. Maybe someday I'll try a vlog. Good for you for doing it!!
    3297 days ago
    You look different from your pics, thanks for unveiling the real you! You are a pretty woman and smart too. We love you too!
    3297 days ago
    Now it is! Yay! Such a great blog! I know how you feel because, up until this month, I didn't see any change for about 6 months and it was really hard. If the clean eats works for you, then that is awesome! Stick with it, you will do great!
    3297 days ago
    Yeah I find that sometimes I can't view vlogs either. I will email it to you.
    3297 days ago
  • MAIA2011
    Now I can get seven seconds! We're switching to ComCast soon. Maybe that will make a difference. Nice bangs!

    3297 days ago
    Really? It is working on my computer...
    3297 days ago
    The video is working :(
    3297 days ago
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