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Day 11 Wow

Thursday, January 13, 2011

I realized today as I was writing in my journal that I have been doing this for 11 days. That's 11 days of drinking all my water, of working out (haven't wanted a rest day), and of eating right. 11 days straight of working to change my life. I'm a quite pleased and impressed but I worry that I am going to start slacking off. As I've said before I'm an extremist and right now I'm obsessed with doing this. I have an extremely addictive personality in fact I used to be an addict but when I quit smoking that was my last addiction. Now I seem to be trying to become addicted to getting healthy. Okay so that's not too bad except when it stops me from doing other things I need to do like the dishes, laundry, cleaning, and errands. I've already discussed my need for balance but then that has me asking another question. Am I really worried that I've become addicted to this and will allow it to come to an unhealthy point or am I worried that I will fail? Many times I obsess over things because they're important to me and I dont' want to lose them. I become afraid that if I take my eyes off the goal for even a second I will fail. When someone tells me to give it my all then I do just that and I do mean "ALL". Okay, okay we don't want to talk about obsessing again we already did that. I should be happy that I've been successful for 11 days with only one slight mess up of the carb variety. No worries though I have a possible solution. I am using the calendar and scheduling my day. If I set a schedule for myself perhaps I will make time for the other things I need to do without allowing this to fall by the wayside. I will find balance. I will not become addicted. I will be healthy, responsible, and successful in all areas of my life! emoticon
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