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My victoria secret catalogue arrived yesterday

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

I didn't get them for the longest time and then for some reason my name must have gotten entered in the "Hey she is thin again" mailing list so they suddenly started arriving this past summer. At first I would hurl them in the garbage with such anger and force that it was a little dramatic. I couldn't even peak at them without starting a spiral of self hatred running through my head. I am embarrassed to admit I also didn't want my fiancé to see what he should be with instead of the fatty he is engaged too. (No I no longer feel this way but I did for a long time). Last night for the first time I felt nothing when I saw it. Just another catalogue and I happen to receive a lot of them. That is when I realized again how much I have changed for the better. I glanced at it again and studied the cover because I LOVED the outfit. Pretty much what I wear in my little fashionista dreams but would never fit the body I currently have. I looked through the whole thing showing my fiancé pictures of outfits and dresses I liked and wasn't jealous at all. I told him how much I loved the cover outfit and he looked at her for a second and said "you actually look a lot like her". This is why I love him so much. Forget I am a size 22 and she is probably a zero or a 2 he saw that we have the same face shape, eye shape and color and similar hair, not the weight difference.
A few moments ago I sat down with a pair of scissors and cut out all the outfits I really love because I am going to start my dream book. A binder full of all the recipes, articles, pictures etc that I find that are a part of my new found self esteem and healthy life. By the time I can fit in those sizes the clothes will be gone from the catalogue but it isn't about that. It is about finding my style and the things that make me happy and feel good about me. By this time next year I am going to be able to order clothes like these and I can't wait.
www.victoriassecret.com/
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This is the outfit I love so much. I am going to be so happy when I can wear something similar.
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  • MYSCALETIPS
    I was thinking the same thing! I'm totally stealing that idea too. I think it will be such motivation! Now I want to sign up for the mag so I can see what kinds of clothes I will wear someday! =) Great Blog!
    3263 days ago
  • LADYV1781
    I LOVE the healthy esteem book idea!!! Hope you don't mind, but I am TOTALLY stealing that from you and using it too!! :)

    You really are making such a total transformation!! Way to go!!
    3290 days ago
  • COOKWITHME65
    Hey Ashley,
    You wont believe what just happened. My boyfriend just walked in with the mail and tossed my Victoria Secrets Mag. "very sexy 2011 swim suit" at me and said "heres's what your aspiring too! I'll never see it!" and walked out. He is such a smuck. Be luckiy you have your lovely fiance. I seriously need to rethink this relationship.
    - Kristan
    3290 days ago
  • JENNIFER4242
    haha that's funny b/c i starting receiving the Victoria Secret Catalogue out of the blue too. I even got a birthday coupon and i never signed up for anything with them. Maybe someone is secretly signing us up with them because they know we are getting skinny. emoticon
    3291 days ago
  • AMOHAME2
    I love the outfit, and I agree that you should order it if you love it! Every girl's got to have a goal outfit she loves, whether she wants to fit it one day (and the way you're going, you're going to be able to wear it soon!!), or wants to keep fitting it forever. One of my favourite things now is being able to buy clothes because I love them and not just because they fit. I love being able to love my clothes!!
    3291 days ago
  • COOKWITHME65
    Ashley,
    He is so right. You do look like her.I'd order that sweater. It will fit next fall. You are doing so great. Such an inspiration to us all.
    emoticon
    - Kristan
    3291 days ago
  • RONIREDD
    "Hey she is thin again" mailing list - CRACKS me up! Thanx for the giggle!
    3291 days ago
  • CHANGINGMORGAN
    Love love love the outfit and love love love how you're feeling. Wonderful!
    3291 days ago
  • MRSSIBRAT
    you remind me so much of me. I hate seeing sexy women on movies etc with my husband because I feel like he will still to feel how not good enough I am. I am so happy he sees you for the beautifull woman you are! I love the outfit!
    3291 days ago
  • KATHLOW
    your fiance wsn't wrong - there's def somehing similar about the face and hair!
    3291 days ago
  • MOMTORISSA
    Yeah for you!!

    I would have never ever shopped at VS before either... but my sister talked me into going in there and trying on a bra once I reached goal weight. O M G what a difference a good, proper fitting bra makes! I highly recommend a VS bra fitting and purchase as a reward for you. Love them!
    3291 days ago
  • LUCKYDOGFARM
    your sweetie has a good eye, the model and you do look alike! and i love the idea for the book. i used to do those forever-ago. then i just started tearing the pages out and stacking them in wire baskets and now i have a gazillion baskets with pictures of neat stuff! that is one of my things to work on this year...do something with the stuff!
    3291 days ago
  • MILTONS_MAMA
    Nice sweater! I like the idea of wearing white in winter, even though you're not really supposed to... You might want to wear leggings with that though, or you'll be awfully cold. I'm filling a binder with fitness and health related stuff, exercises I want to do and beauty techniques, etc. I wish you the best of luck with yours! It takes some work, but I think we really should spend a little time thinking about ourselves now and then. And it's way better than saving a ton of magazines.
    3291 days ago
  • RHONDA_11
    That is lovely. It will look beautiful on you emoticon
    3291 days ago
  • ADVENTURE-GIRL
    I totally know what you mean. I have recently started looking at Victoria Secret and thinking that I should buy something in the near future (after some lbs lost) as a reward. I used to toss them too. Love the outfit and your dream book :)
    3291 days ago
  • SEESTARS
    Looks sexy and cozy at the same time. Your book idea is emoticon
    3291 days ago
  • FIZZYBALL
    I like the idea of the dream book. I might borrow it ;) Your fiance is right...you do favor the model.
    3291 days ago
  • MCSNYDER1
    Outfit is adorable. YOU are adorable. The two of you belong together!!!!!
    3291 days ago
  • CHEF4RENT
    Ashley, you rock. You are everything he said, definitely a beautiful woman and strong. Your fiance should be proud to have you on his arm, and it sounds like he is. I am very happy for you. Every woman should have the confidence and a man that appreciates her for who she is.
    3291 days ago
  • JARMOOZLE
    Cute outfit! You are very lucky to have such a supportive, honest partner :)
    3291 days ago
  • NANHBH
    Ashley,

    Cute outfit -- and you DO look like the model! Keep up the good work. You are making amazing progress!
    3291 days ago
  • CALIKIKI
    What an amazing realization! And a super man!
    3291 days ago
  • MAMADWARF
    Muy caliente, Ashley! Muy Bonita, mi amiga!

    I love your idea of the dream book.. awesome idea!
    3291 days ago
  • MLRICHARD
    Great idea. I "dream" in that catalog all the time. I was adding some similar outfits to my "Motivational" poster for my personal challenge.

    3291 days ago
  • HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE
    He's right, you DO look like the model. The outfit is super cute, you'll be in it before you know it.
    3291 days ago
  • MAY1787
    Very good idea about a dream book. I am totally going to start one!
    3291 days ago
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