Feeling good today!
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Well this week seems so much different then last week that is for sure. I was so stressed out last week. We had a set back with my son and it just threw me for a loop. I found out he didn't go to class much last semester and failed everything. I kind of had a feeling over Christmas that it wasn't good, but I ignored my instincts and didn't even ask him. I didn't want to hear bad news during the few days he was home. I just didn't realize how bad the depression had hit him. As a sufferer of depression myself I should have seen the signs, but he was really good at lying and not letting me know how bad it was. He has gone to a counselor and today should be calling for a psych dr. appointment. I hate that he will have to be on meds, but at this point he needs to feel good again too. I hate that he is struggling with this. I was really trying to let him stand on his own feet and not talk to him everyday. Well he didn't handle it very well so it is back to micro managing him for a bit. I just didn't want the one thing I pass on to him be depression. That just makes me sad too! I appreciate all who read this and listen. I realize it does effect my health and well being as well as his.
Last week during all of this, I didn't eat well. Not horrible or anything, just not enough. But I am back to logging all my food and my fitness in. That has helped me stay on track this week. So far so good. It's amazing though even with all the crud last week with my son, I still feel so good. I had my moments, but I'm not dwelling on the negative and causing myself panic attacks in the process. That doesn't help anyone me included. It just amazes me how eating right and exercising can help with so many aspects of our lives. Had this happened last year I might be in bed myself.
I have 15 weeks to go before my walk. I have to do 8 and 5 miles this weekend. I am going to sign up for a 10K for Saturday. That will get 6 miles in then I'll add a few more either later that day or Sunday. I am feeling so good about this walk. I feel strong and capable. So excited! I am experimenting with shoes to find a pair that really feel comfy and don't cause me blisters or toe nail loss. Right now I am leaning toward Asics. I tried a pair of Nike+ shoes and they just don't seem to have enough support in them for me. But I got some insoles for them and am going to try them again.
Ok, I am rambling alot here today. Just wanted to get a blog out since it had been awhile!!!
BLC 15 started last week and that has been awesome! I love my new team! I did pretty well with the weekend challenge! I would give myself a B for the weekend. There was some stuff I could have done better but overall I think I did pretty well.
I did have one thing to ask all my friends. Last week my BF said he needed to join Sparkpeople to start logging in what he eats. He doesn't need to lose weight but he has to keep up with his fiber and he wants to make sure he is eating enough for all the exercising he is doing. Well I did not have a positive reaction to this at all. My first reaction was NO...this is my one spot where you aren't. He is on facebook so I am always having to be careful there, and Spark is mine. How selfish is that though!! I thought about it for a minute and took it back, it is selfish and unspark like of me to not want him here. How would you all feel?? I honestly don't think he would be active here at all, in fact I would probably be the one putting in all his food and everything. Just wondering how you all would feel about this???
Thank you all for being here and for your support! It means the world to me! Tomorrow is the first weigh in for BLC 15. I'm hoping for a small loss at least!! You all have an awesome day! Stay warm!!!