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Monday, January 10, 2011

Today is one of those Mondays in which, if I could afford it, I'd call my boss and tell her that I quit. However, I have bills to pay, and really do like having something other than a car roof over my head, so quitting isn't an option.

I have worked for my current company 6 years and during that time have had the opportunity to work in various capacities. As a supervisor of 16 people and a co-supervisor for another 16 - most of whom case manage 55-65 ill people- I have my share of "excitement" in any given day. At my age and in all the positions I've held in my work career, it's not the supervision or the people or the "excitement" that bothers me. What has started to eat away at my ability to remain objective in this job is what, in the current financial climate we're in, is being expected of those 32 people I supervise, and what I'm expected to do *as* their supervisor. My mantra has become, "We're only human and we can only accomplish so much in one day." I repeat that to my 32 coworkers every single day........but each day gets harder and harder to wade through, and each day gets harder and harder to try to wave the pom-poms.

I stay with this job for a variety of reasons - longevity, working from home, loving the people with whom I work, and a tiny bit of saving for retirement are chief among them. However, the 16-18 hour days, and the guilty feeling I have when I don't put in a ton of time on weekends anymore are getting very old - and I'm not considered a "spring chicken" myself anymore.

So, I'm facing this Monday morning, not having worked for work over this past weekend, with lots of guilt, even lots more to do, priorities to set, and not even wanting to turn that darned work computer on.

It's about that lottery.......................
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    Boy Linda, I feel your anxiety. I think we are all in search of a healthy balance. So much to do and so little time.

    Between "we are only human" and "do the very best you can" - I don't think anyone can ask anymore of us!

    Breath, and feel good about every single thing you accomplish.
    2718 days ago
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