Yesterday was the fail, but today has been the win
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
Yesterday was Rich's first day back to work after Christmas Vacation. (His office was unofficially closed for the week between Christmas and New Years and they were closed Monday for New Years.) The boys were used to him being home with Daddy so dealing with just Mommy again was unacceptable. I had to go to Wal-Mart to get Teddy's glasses adjusted and do some shopping, and from the moment we got there, they were trouble. Teddy demanded and hit, tried to stand in front of the cart so I couldn't go where I needed to and kept running away from me. Pete kept trying to climb out of the cart. I was so depressed by the way they acted and the way I reacted. I needed comfort food, so it was McDonald's. I made my status update here, forgetting that it also updated over on Facebook. Which meant that a lot of family called to make sure I was ok. I appreciated it, but somehow it wasn't helping.
My husband even called, wanting to know what he could do to help. I asked for a Me Night Out. He said he's watch the boys and let me go to Starbucks to write for one of the swaps that I was in. I left right after dinner (meatloaf). I ordered a Venti Chai Frappachino and a low-fat banana chocolate chip muffin. And I made them last 3 hours while I wrote journal entries and listened to Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief. When I came home, the boys were in bed and I was feeling re-energized. I was able to face the day.
Today hasn't been too bad, either. I've had issues with the kids, of course. They're 2 and 4. I'll probably have issues with them every day! But I was able to handle it better emotionally. I even watched my friend's kids while she went to an appointment. I've eaten healthier. I've gone up and down the stairs several times more than usual. I got a load of laundry started. And in a few minutes, I'm going to push a cart around Michaels to get some crafting supplies. When I get home, the boys are going to take a nap and I'm going to exercise.
Sometimes, all you need is a little rejuvenation. And I need to remember that it's ok to ask Rich to watch the kids so I can have that time.