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Wednesday, January 05, 2011

I started to evaluate my life a couple of months ago , praying that I would find answers and GOD would lead me in the right direction, but being as stubborn as I am I refused to see what was presented, but GOD knowing how stubborn I am made provisions for it to get through my , stainless steel, tornado proof head, lol.
I was on adhd meds as a child and with searching decided to get back on them, I have trouble reading and etc, gym class I have trouble paying attention, lol so as part of my plan I decided to stop watching T.v and that had been amazing!!!!!I did not realize how much void I was trying to fill by becoming engrossed in the fake lives on the tube, filled with controversy and violence and constantly feeling that way myself.
I am reading and enjoying it more than I thoought, I putter around the house, whicH I always felt guilty for before because I did not keep it the way I wanted too, with not T.v I have no distractions and the peace has been so settling, it really does feel like a weight has been lifted.
I feel like my eating has been resulted to this as well, trying to fill things with superficial stimuli, for me has only resulted in unhealthy eating, feeling angry, unsettled and somewhat spiteful, I know that may sound strange but that's just how I feel.
I love going through my day with feelings of compassion, appreciation for the world around me that has been blanketed by loud music, roaring T.V and constant chatter, I am so glad that god gave me the insight I needed to get to this point.
I have been in a downward spiral for so long, feeling like I could not accomplish what wanted, very low self esteem, feeling like I was existing, not living, like I was going through the motions but but not really making any progress, just there, I was very sad, felt lime crying alot not felt understood at all, feeling anger and resentment because I did not think anyone had a clue.

If you may be going through this you can send me a line and I will help you anyway I can, I have such peace know and I love my life again, if your still reading y persona journey thank you. GOD bless
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  • ROSIE777
    Great blog my sweet friend here is wishing you a great 2011 year. You can do this emoticon
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    2726 days ago
    So glad cutting out TV is working for you! I have no advice, but want to offer any encouragement I can. You are a wonderful human being and will find your way.
    2726 days ago
    Awesome job copping with your ADHD! My husband is dealing with it and I know how much of a struggle I have just living with him. I can only imagine what it would be like to actually go through it.
    2726 days ago
    you are doing awesome! Just recognizing that television has such an influence on our daily lives and how we go about our day (mentally and physically) is a major step. We are constantly being bombarded by images of food, violence, unhealthy relationships, etc. that is it any wonder that there are so many of us with problems in our own lives?
    Reading a book and focusing on you and your home are positive steps. You will be able to find peace and satisfaction in your daily chores and success will follow.
    You are doing great!

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    2726 days ago
    I read a book on ADHD last year by Dr. Daniel Amen... you may want to check it out too... it helped me TREMENDOUSLY to help my son who also has to deal with it...

    I'm an opponent of the tv as well... I used to call it the brain sucking box from h#ll... now I refer to it as the LIFE sucking box from h#ll...

    Sounds like you are making very positive strides! Yay!

    ~ be good to yourself
    ~ Barbara

    (PS in the book the Dr. has you take a survey and then classifies your ADHD to a particular type... from there he gives advice on how to cope with it, including taking certain supplements and exercise, etc. I started my son on the Omega3 Fish Oil after reading the book and I think it has helped immensely, but do the survey before you start just randomly taking stuff because different types of ADHD need different types of supplements)

    2726 days ago
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