Embracing the year 2011
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
As 2011 is here I realize just how many changes I have made to better my life. I gave up a long term relationship(for good) that I knew was bringing my self esteem down daily. Some from physical abuse, alot from mental. As I began to shed the weight I started to feel better about looking at myself in the mirror. However, my significant other did NOT share my joy. I didnt see it at the time but now I realize the influence his negativity had on my entire life! I also see the patterns of abuse and why I would stay so depressed! I would pray that God would give me the strength to lose the weight and firm up....that my self esteem would be boosted. What I didnt realize was the bondage I was in was more than a struggle with food. I thought I could change him. What I needed was to change ME! Inside to outside. I have overcome many issues in my life. I have gained self respect back. I have gained friendships and renewed old ones. My profile had a picture I recently removed. It was me(heavy) w/my ex-stated "my biggest supporter". I deceived myself back then. My biggest supporters are my family and close friends. One in particular(bec) has encouraged me, cried w/me, laughed w/me through this all. She got me walking, off the soda, and on the way to finally being happy, free and living healthier. So cheers to the ppl that have real friends and family that support them. I am in this to lose weight and gain a life!
So if any one here is in a relstionship w/anyone that discourages them to lose weight, or firm up or talks down to them-recognize this as control and get help! A true friend/lover/significant other will never put you down. They will boost you up and encourage you! You are not alone! If you ever need a friend or some one to talk to , I will be here. happy New Year to all! Gail