The year of turning 39
Monday, January 03, 2011
Well, I vowed not to get all caught up in the new year weight loss blah. I made a commitment to myself to get back on track post-holiday but found myself depressed on NYE since I was not partying or hanging out like others. So I vowed on NYD that I would not allow myself to get caught in the pressure of the new year and resolutions. I do have some goals set for myself but figure if I use those "key words" that everyone else is using, I'm just going to set myself up for failure. The Biggest Loser challenge began today for my Spark team so it is a perfect time to get myself together and that means recommitting my goals to myself. I did realize that I will turn 39 this year and will be that much closer to 40. Now, turning 40 doesn't scare me. I know it will be a blessing. My daughter's father died last year at 38 after a variety of health problems, so what better reminder to myself that I need to take better care of myself since it's not just about me. I have a beautiful daughter, a loving a supportive boyfriend, family and friends who would be deeply effected if something were to happen to me. When I had a cardiac cath a few years ago everyone was extremely worried. Not me because I knew I was fine and maybe that line of thinking prevented me from actually, finally making the changes I needed to lose the weight and get healthy. I said I was going to change and I did for awhile but it didn't last. Now, I'm heavier again(not that I haven't been heavy in the last 20 years) but I'm past the weight point that I say OK, Dani, get it together! So now is the time to quit the lip service and get it together. I have been working with a health coach for nearly a year and she gives me the business about not taking time for myself so what better time to get it together than now! I had planned to workout today but had a late night with my fella and I'm a bit tired today but here I go again making excuses! I signed up for the 28 day bootcamp workout so if I do nothing else today I will do my Day 1 10 minute workout and take it one day at a time. I will turn 39 in six months and I want to stay realistic about what my weight loss goal will be by then. I won't set one now but being that I have already started making changes, I'm well on my way. Yay me!