Sunday, January 02, 2011
I had some major mental things happen to me, lost my happy thoughts, lost my focus...was very sad, let the darkness overcome my positive thinking. I knew it was going to be horrible to see the snow, duh! I live in Minnesota. But I enjoyed this summer probably more than any other summer I can remember. All the wonderful walking. Starting to ride my bike again. I have never been a winter person, never will be. And we have a record snowfall for December...AGHHHH! My friend at work was always bringing me food, and she is a very good cook. I was going to have a talk with her, but since I gained weight I think she has gotten the hint without my having to tell her. I am like an alcoholic with food. Totally powerless. If I stay away from things I shouldn't have, I am fine. And I have a MAJOR weakness for Mexican food. I could eat it everyday. And I have seen my friend cook her food. She is tiny and can eat the fat she adds. And then of course we went shopping and to lunch at El Burrito. Stupidly I got some bakery goods. Then there was my neice's wedding the following weekend. I figured after her wedding I would go back, then it was after Thanksgiving, then after Christmas. I have been eating and not paying much attention. For the most part it was healthy things, but there were alot of bad things at Christmas. And I do feel alot worse in my joints. I am ready now to get back here. To try to become obsessed again, which is what I need to do. I am so grateful to have this place to come back to in order to draw the strength I need!