So that's what being hit over the head with a baseball bat feels like
Thursday, December 30, 2010
"Stuff" by Tyler C Gore
Powerfully written and a little too close to what my home could turn into - a house overstuffed with stuff I don't even remember. Yet it is so hard to let go and, also, to not get more.
Tyler C Gore's story scares the wholly crap (excuse my french) out of me. If ever there were a wake up call - this is it.
I HAVE to get realistic, to let go of my magical thinking...
If enough time passes, my situation will change.
And if I ignore my bills, they will magically get paid.
And if I ignore my health, I will get down to a 'normal' weight. My stress seizures will go away. My body will stay limber and arthritis free. My teeth won't fall out. My glaucoma and developing cataracts won't affect my sight.
And if I ignore the people who stand by me, they will still be there when I wake up from this bad dream. I won't feel isolated.
And if I don't sleep, I won't have this nightmare.
OMG - I think I finally hit myself over the head with a baseball bat.
All of this is tied together. It is a way of living. How could I not see this? Be so dense for so many years???
More as I let all this sink in.
(When I did spell check I was informed I had used 222 words. Who said things don't come in threes? Coincidence or more magical thinking?)
My new dream...
Pay it forward!