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Tired, afraid, but back!

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

As the title says...I am tired, VERY AFRAID, yet back to SP.

I have been logging on daily, reading my email but not really present on SP.
October's medical SCARE really threw me for a loop. It took a long time to feel 'normal' and even then, I wasn't my old self.
My get up and go had got up and went, so to speak. I started to be afraid of exercise. I think I equated exercise to the mini stroke and probably still do. The night it happened i had been exercising with my personal trainer, HARD.
And I guess I was thinking that I was getting in shape and eating healthy, so how could this happen NOW, shouldn't it have happened when I was a bigger sloth?
Now I am off my running schedule and have to start from scratch. I put my treadmill in the fold up position for a party, and can't get it down and it is frustrating the point where I sat on the floor and cried....thinking it must be the universe's way of telling me I am not ready yet. BUT I AM....aren't I???

I don't want to be one of these people who start and don't follow though with things, which is where I am headed.

I need help...SERIOUS help!!!

I only have a couple of days in Decmeber but I have one last goal to meet....I registered for the resolution Run...10K...I know there is no way I can run it...but i am going anyway!
I think it will motivate me to be there with the rest of the SP crew...I will go and cheer on my SP friends...and that will put me in the right frame of fact...maybe I will even walk it...YA...that's it...I will walk it if they let me!!!

Alright...there's a goal...and dammit...the stupid treadmill is coming down!!!! Whether I have to hire someone to figure it out or not!

coming on SP always gets my juices flowin'. I really should write more often!

Boy...that was a load off...I feel SO MUCH BETTER now....

Hope everyone had a great Christmas break and that Santa was good to you all...even those non Christians...hope it was a wonderful holiday!


Later Sparkers

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    So happy to see you back! I missed you! Walk the resolution run, crawl it, it does not matter, the main thing is: you do it! The next step will be easier and before you know it you will be running your heart out again!
    3672 days ago
  • SUNNY1432
    I was wondering where you had been. Good luck on the Resolution run, just make sure you take it an appropriate pace; don't over due it!!
    Take care and let us know how the run went. emoticon emoticon
    3672 days ago
    So glad that you are back...and starting to feel like yourself again! I have so missed your blogs. You always make me smile! I think going to the 10K will be a wonderful way to start yourself up again...and yes, you need to get someone to unfold the treadmill!!
    3672 days ago
    Great to see you back at SP , and on the road to recovery !
    Slow and easy as you go ; I hope that you will have a Happy New Year 2011 !
    3672 days ago
    Wow I feel bad, I didn't realise you had had a stroke!
    I'm glad you are back and on the road to recovery. Just take it slow, but never give up!
    3672 days ago
    Glad to see you are back, might see you at the Resolution Run !
    3672 days ago
  • CARLA-216
    I'm glad to see you here! You've been in my thoughts and I'm glad to hear you're doing better.
    3672 days ago
  • ANNE7X7
    Hey!!!! So happy to see that you are back and ready to kick some 2011 butt! Looking forward to seeing you at the Resolution Run!!

    How about we go for lunch time walks? I need to move more during the day too, so it will get us going. At least 3X per week in January??
    3673 days ago
    Hey! My friend was in good shape and was training for a 1/2 marathon when she had her stroke at 52 out of the blue.

    That was 3 yrs ago. We went running a month ago. She kicked my butt. AND proceeded to tell me that she had already run 5 miles before we had done our 2!

    She is a spokesperson for the Stroke Awareness something or other I believe.

    3673 days ago
    It is SO good to see you back! Missed you tons, and was just thinking about you this morning, in fact, as I have just three days to make the goal I set for your team.

    So it was a stroke instead of the migraine (I can't remember the special name for that migraine, sorry)? Or it that one and the same? What a terrifying thing to happen!

    Do hope you're back for sure, blogging more often and being your direct, irreverent, funny self.

    Best of luck in getting them to let you walk the 10k. That's still a very respectable goal for most people, and maybe it will, as you say, get the juices flowing.

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    3673 days ago
    I'm glad to see you back, you've been missed!! You are SO ready to get back on track, slow and steady! I hope to see you at the 10K, starting off the new year in a positive and motivational way! emoticon
    3673 days ago
    Welcome Back!

    See you at the Resolution Run 2010
    3673 days ago
    I'm so glad you are here & doing better. I think about you quite often, wondering how you are doing.
    You are right - you've gotta do whatever it takes to get that treadmill up cause you are going to start walking & eventually getting back to running.
    I've really missed your humor, good ideas & energy.
    3673 days ago
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