Sigh.. then another sigh followed by another
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
So I was amped up today.. all ready to go to this local temporary agency that might have a good position for me.. being out of work for so long I was actually excited.. then I was going to return Xmas things then hit the gym for the first time in a while now.. go outside prepared to dig out my car.. worked on it.. then some more.. tires spinning.. nothing.. I gave up.. then I cried.. I felt like such a failure.. at everything.. sometimes I'm a big baby... one big mess.. in all aspects of my life.. my relationships.. my finances.. especially my weight.. I guess I still feel this way since I'm writing this blog to get it all out.. I need to cheer up and not be so down about it.. at least I got a step machine for Christmas.. it's super cute and I can shove it under my bed.. and with hand weights it really does work me out!