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Going for goal in 2011

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

This holiday season had many blessings for me. Although my grandmother was missing from our celebrations she was very specific about her wishes that we not mourn her but celebrate her and go on with our lives. She truly wanted to be with my grandfather and she was ready to go. I had one moment of breakdown in which I sobbed uncontrollably while making her pie recipe but other than that I was able to have nothing but fond memories of her. I realized that I am so lucky to have my fiancé who I can not imagine my life without and our 2 families both of which I love so very much. We had a wonderful weekend of celebrating and spending time together. Yes, I really over did it but I am not going to punish myself over it. Today I am back on track and plan to stay there. I threw away all the leftover goodies this morning before snowshoed to work. (Not really lol but it felt like it with all the snow we got) Speaking of snowshoeing I really should give it a try hmmmm. Anyway all the eating and drinking made me reflect a lot on this past 7 months and what I hope to accomplish in 2011. I am not a resolution maker. I feel like they are falsehoods created out of obligation. What I am going to accomplish in 2011 are going to be my reality. No ifs ands or buts about it. MEZZOANGEL wrote a great blog about being happy where she is right now and it made me think a lot about myself. If I stopped today, would I be happy here, and the honest answer is no. I am not ready to stop. I am less focused on a number as a goal but just a feeling. I want to put on pants and not have a muffin top. I want to put on a shirt and not worry about it sticking to my belly. I am not going to lie and say I don't care about being in a bathing suit. I would love to be able to go to the beach and not feel like a freak. I don't think I am going to be a super model by any means but just to feel normal would be great. My ex husband was a fashion photographer and after seeing what a lot of those women look like in real life it helped me to realize NO ONE looks that good. They are all airbrushed and know how to pose for their best angles. I just want to be in a place where I feel comfortable and can get dressed to go out and not end up in tears every time. I am not there yet.
I am going to get to that place this year. My grandmother's greatest wish for me was to be healthy and happy and I am doing it not just for me but for her as well. She was proud of me for getting as far as I did before she passed and this year I am going for goal. So I say to you my amazing SP friends. Come with me. Lets accomplish our goals this year, whatever they may be. We can do it. Thank you for all the support this year. I am excited to see us all accomplish our dreams in 2011. Hugs, Ash
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  • NINNY165
    Thanks for sharing ..... emoticon emoticon
    3303 days ago
  • ALOFA0509

    Game On!!!! Look Out 2011 emoticon
    3305 days ago
    Great blog! Your grandma has helped the whole SP community with her wonderful advice - what an angel. Thank you both for sharing. Let's do this together!! Mish emoticon emoticon
    3305 days ago
  • .TARA.
    Good for you! Watch out 2011!
    3306 days ago
    Watch out 2011...Here we come...
    3306 days ago
    I can see where you get your positive attitude from! Your grandmother left a wonderful legacy in you! Way to make her proud and making her wishes your reality - keeping yourself happy & healthy!
    3306 days ago
    WATCH OUT 2011! Here we come!
    3306 days ago
    Thank you for sharing.

    We will reach our dreams this year. We can; we will.

    3306 days ago
    Good blog! I hope this year is exactly how you need it to be!
    3306 days ago
  • DEBBIE19580
    im definitely by your side on this one ashley!!!! emoticon emoticon
    3306 days ago
    I'm ready to join you in "going for the goal" we Can do this , now is the time.
    3306 days ago
  • LADYV1781
    Good for you doll!!!
    3306 days ago
    Let's do it! 2011 is gonna be awesome!!!!
    3306 days ago
  • MAIA2011
    You'll rock 2011!

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    3306 days ago
    Here's to 2011 and to us, Cheers, bella mia!
    3306 days ago
    Right there with you all the way!
    3306 days ago
    That's great! I know that the holidays are the hardest for me when it comes to lost grandparents, but I think it's great that you were able to celebrate them and focus on the fond memories, not the grief.

    As for resolutions.... I generally don't make resolutions in the classic sense. I generally don't say "This year I'm not going to drink soft drinks." There area a couple of reasons for this. One is, if I set up a goal like that, what are the odds that New Years eve I'll be slamming back soft drinks like a fiend? Second is, if it's a goal that's a real challenge, then odds are I'm not going to be successful on the first round and the first time I cave and have a soft drink the resolution will have failed. Three, these kinds of goals often don't put my real goals in view--it's not the soft drinks specifically that are the issue, but rather than I'm trying to get healthier and part of that means cutting unnecessary sugar and caffeine.

    I do find that the New Year is a good time to reevaluate what I'm doing with my life, what I want to be doing with my life/where I want to be, and how well those two match. If what I'm doing isn't getting me where I want to be, then I try to change things so that they are. This process often takes up most of January (so my "New Years resolutions" (which don't much resemble New Years resolutions in the classic sense) aren't often consolidated until early February. I'm okay with that. Also, I tend to go through the same process in June, though not usually quite as extensively.

    For example, I know that one of my goals for 2011 is to deal with stress better. I want to try meditation, which I keep promising myself I will try but it keeps getting lost in the shuffle. But if I try meditating regularly and it doesn't work for me, there are other things I can try.... being in more regular contact with friends, having a more predictable schedule, working out regularly--including fencing, playing tennis, ice skating, etc.--getting more sunlight, getting a more regular sleep schedule, etc. And maybe I won't get where I want to be at the end of the year--this has been my goal for the last 2 years at least and I still have a really hard time relaxing and still am struggling with stress. But having it as a goal that I'm working toward means that even if I'm not "successful" I still benefit, and am still closer to my goal.
    3306 days ago
    That's wonderful! You can do it and make all your dreams come true in 2011!

    I am usually so depressed about the year ending but this year I am excited for what the next year holds!
    3306 days ago
    Can't wait for it to start! I'm with ya! Bring it on!
    3306 days ago
    IM with ya, ash. The world is not gonna know what to do with all this hotness and confidance!!
    3306 days ago
    *hugs* I really needed to see this today. Thank you.
    3306 days ago
  • RIGBY31
    Ashley.... I'm coming with you in 2011! Holy smokes it's going to be awesome!
    3306 days ago
    Great blog Ash and you can do it! I can't wait soon enough for 2011 to get here! I am going for goal this year as well!
    3306 days ago
  • TERRYT55
    Great blog........I am excited to see what 2011 brings too. I'm wishing you the best of luck achieving all of your goal! Happy New Year!
    3306 days ago
    You are doing excellent, 2011 will bring you many more accomplishments I am sure ! Maybe even snowshoes...
    3306 days ago
    I want to get there, too! I'm so close, but the goal is still so far away.
    3306 days ago
    You are doing SO great!
    3306 days ago
    I'm with you, friend! emoticon
    3306 days ago
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