My Son Joshua.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Morning to all and Merry Christmas!
I figured I probably need to get this written down before I think It's not important.
I have 4 grown boys. 2 live near me, 2 are on opposite sides of the country. One of them had cut off ALL communication with the family for nearly 5 YEARS!
To say this caused me endless grief would be an understatement...... He had just within the last few months been occasionally texting or calling his twin brother, so I now knew he was at least alive!
Well he showed up this Christmas!!!!!!! To say I'm overjoyed to see him, is not even to begin to describe what I feel.
BUT of course there are all of these messy emotions that keep getting in the way....... he has seen all of the family so far. He and I talked and cried for over 6 hours on Wed eve. I was so emotionally drained but overjoyed to see him. I feel we have done most of the hard work, and it is good, but of course the rest of the family has not. So the feelings keep getting in the way.
So much misunderstandings about things long past.......... the truth of all of that, is hard to hear and accept on both sides.
There was a flair up last night between him and his twin. I mostly stayed out of the middle of it. But cautioned both of them separately that this was going to be hard for all of us. That each of them need to realize what is going on inside of their heads. I love all my children sooo much.
The feelings of anger that we all feel because he abandoned us, are conflicting with the absolute joy to have him back! That we need to be respectful, but honest with all the messy emotions.
He has changed some good, some not so, we have to accept each. We also have to move on from this to become a family again.
Please if you are reading this please keep us in prayer now and then.
MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of you! and YEA GOD!!!