Starting over again
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
This is hard, but I've got to face up to facts. I've gained back a good bit of the weight I had lost. I lost a total of 101 lbs. But, I gained back 69 of those lbs, OVER HALF! I don't know what I was thinking. I know some of it was due to the depression I had to battle through. But what about the rest? Why couldn't I seem to get back on track again? Why am I still struggling to get back on track? I can't seem to get it right lately.
But, I am going to give it another try. I know I deserve better than this. Now, just making myself believe that is hard. But, I am working on it.
It's been a whole new world working full time and trying to make time to take care of me. Sometimes it's just not possible. But, in taking a step towards myself, I have been looking for help.
A few things standing in my way:
I tore the ligaments in my ankle just before halloween. So, I had to take time to heal from that
As a result of that injury, I found out I have arthritis in my ankles, and bone fragments in the one I injured. So, I have to find a new way to workout from what I was used to.
I have to figure out ways to eat healthy while at a job that gives no breaks, and I am constantly on my feet and on the go for 8 hours a day.
Learning to over come the tiredness that comes from my job nd the sore feet.
The first step I've taken is I ordered a book on cycling to lose weight. It's weird how I went from riding 50 miles a week or better to not being able to ride at all. It's the altitude here, but I've got to learn to get past it. I'm hoping this will help.
And I need to find a good support group. I can never seem to find one that I fit in with. I always seem to get pushed by the wayside, and that just makes me feel worse and more likely to fail. So, need to find a place I feel welcomed and like I belong.
So, starting over again, from 207 lbs......