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Am I a freak?

Friday, December 17, 2010

One of my oldest friend's/coworkers lost over 100 pounds last year and I was excited her, and now here I am almost a year later, 40 pounds down, and hiding from the compliments and comment about my weight loss. We are a very tight group at work and nothing is a secret, so now that they have started to notice my weight loss I find myself shying away from the their compliments.

It's almost as if I'm afraid for people to notice, and to be honest maybe I am.... I have yet to even try on clothes that used to be too small and I don't want people at work to comment. Maybe I'm afraid that I'll fail and gain the weight back. Does anyone else feel the same way, or am I a freak?
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  • no profile photo TROUTWOMAN1
    You are not a freak, I know exactly how you feel. Posting about it and asking for help was a good first step. Last year I lost 40 pounds something I always thought I wanted, then men started complimenting me and the unwanted attention drove me right back to the refrigerator. I couldnt handle it, I kept feeling like I had done something wrong. This taught me how much are emotions are tied to the weight and that carrying the weight serves a purpose. I am now losing the weight again and gaining the skills to deal with being smaller. You might want to just stay at the weight that you are for a while until this weight becomes comfortable and you dont feel like a stranger in it. Once you are comfortable here then you can start losing again.
    Be kind to yourself transitions are always hard, even change we think we want is not easy. Keep posting here and let us give you the support that you need.
    3278 days ago
  • no profile photo TROUTWOMAN1
    You are not a freak, I know exactly how you feel. Posting about it and asking for help was a good first step. Last year I lost 40 pounds something I always thought I wanted, then men started complimenting me and the unwanted attention drove me right back to the refrigerator. I couldnt handle it, I kept feeling like I had done something wrong. This taught me how much are emotions are tied to the weight and that carrying the weight serves a purpose. I am now losing the weight again and gaining the skills to deal with being smaller. You might want to just stay at the weight that you are for a while until this weight becomes comfortable and you dont feel like a stranger in it. Once you are comfortable here then you can start losing again.
    Be kind to yourself transitions are always hard, even change we think we want is not easy. Keep posting here and let us give you the support that you need.
    3278 days ago
  • no profile photo TROUTWOMAN1
    You are not a freak, I know exactly how you feel. Posting about it and asking for help was a good first step. Last year I lost 40 pounds something I always thought I wanted, then men started complimenting me and the unwanted attention drove me right back to the refrigerator. I couldnt handle it, I kept feeling like I had done something wrong. This taught me how much are emotions are tied to the weight and that carrying the weight serves a purpose. I am now losing the weight again and gaining the skills to deal with being smaller. You might want to just stay at the weight that you are for a while until this weight becomes comfortable and you dont feel like a stranger in it. Once you are comfortable here then you can start losing again.
    Be kind to yourself transitions are always hard, even change we think we want is not easy. Keep posting here and let us give you the support that you need.
    3278 days ago
  • no profile photo TROUTWOMAN1
    You are not a freak, I know exactly how you feel. Posting about it and asking for help was a good first step. Last year I lost 40 pounds something I always thought I wanted, then men started complimenting me and the unwanted attention drove me right back to the refrigerator. I couldnt handle it, I kept feeling like I had done something wrong. This taught me how much are emotions are tied to the weight and that carrying the weight serves a purpose. I am now losing the weight again and gaining the skills to deal with being smaller. You might want to just stay at the weight that you are for a while until this weight becomes comfortable and you dont feel like a stranger in it. Once you are comfortable here then you can start losing again.
    Be kind to yourself transitions are always hard, even change we think we want is not easy. Keep posting here and let us give you the support that you need.
    3278 days ago
  • DDHEART
    Change is the most frightening thing...we of course are afraid of maybe not being able to do this for good and always...but I think we're also afraid because we don't know this person we are becoming....it takes a long time and when people make comments we have that uncomfortable moment of having to face that we are that person we don't know. By posting this blog, you are taking a step to getting to know the new you and if you continue to examine your feelings while you're learning to look at yourself with appreciation for what you have accomplished, you will become more comfartable.
    3281 days ago
  • RGROACH1965
    This makes perfect sense to me. It is really hard to live up to new, redefined expectations from others-even if they are expectations we imagine people have of us. This does not make you a freak, just a human. From personal experience, I can tell you that gaining weight back is soooo depressing! Most of us knows how that feels, and the fear of making this failure public is excruciating!

    However, why not just take this one day at a time? Today you are thinner, stronger, toner. Tomorrow does not matter. Take a little time to linger in front of the mirror in the morning and acknowledge that your hard work has paid off.

    Why go back to wearing something old? If it doesn't fit yet, you may be greatly discouraged. Even if it does fit, you may associate those old clothes with the weight that you gained back. If you are like me you might say to yourself, "here I am wearing these old clothes, and how long was I able to wear these before I put the weight back on?"

    You might consider, instead of donating them, taking them to a consignment shop. You can make a little money from them, and then be able to buy affordable new clothes. If your budget can afford it, maybe you should take advantage of the great after-Christmas sales. One pair of pants that fit right in your new size can be a wonderful motivator-even if you just wear them around the house!

    Make the leap. Claim your success!
    3281 days ago
  • GSCOTTC
    Yes, but then so am I. I was getting so many comments that I didn't want to talk about it.

    I have found that my fear of gaining all my weight back is going away the longer I stay on spark. I am learning the skills to stay fit.

    Take care

    Scott
    3281 days ago
  • GSCOTTC
    Yes, but then so am I. I was getting so many comments that I didn't want to talk about my weight loss at all.

    I have found that my fear of gaining all my weight back is going away the longer I stay on spark. I am learning the skills to stay fit so I know how to control my binges.

    Take care

    Scott
    3281 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/17/2010 11:13:31 PM
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