My Early Christmas Present to Myself!!!! A Celebration of 6 months
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Where do I start? This past week, Dec. 13 2010 I decided to weigh myself (since I burned up my last scale because of a battery malfunction). My husband was so nice to buy a new scale for me to help keep me motivated. My official 6 month anniversary for Spark People would be December 20th, however I had to celebrate with a total of 50lbs. loss on Monday. I have never seen such a weight loss in my life within my own body.
What made me come to Spark People? I decided when I had reached my heaviest weight ever 247lbs in June 2010, that enough was enough. I always suffered being "obese" since I was a child. Many times, I lost the weight and once again gained it back. I had five pregnancies, three which ended in early miscarriages. I gained the weight each pregnancy and faced depression with the losses. After having my son and daughter, despite all my losses....I breastfed each baby and found that it was great for them, but my hunger made me more suseptible to gaining more weight and holding on to the weight longer. Since my son was already 2 years old I decide that "enough was enough". I was sick and tired of literally being and feeling sick and tired. What could I possibly do though? I realized that I needed to make a positive and a PERMANENT change in my life and a change for me that would benefit my family in the end. I started nutrition tracking and then boosted my physical activity up. In the past I had loved running, but now I could not run a couple of miles if I had tried. I got involved in trying out the Zumba DVDs and loved them!!! Then I got some Jillian DVDs and loved the 30 day Shred. The weight started coming off. The energy started to increase. I have more to lose, but know that it can be done. My main goal is centered around being in a "healthy BMI" for the first time in my life. All I have ever known has been an "obese BMI". Currently, I am a point or so away from an "over weight" BMI.
Since it is almost Christmas, I have realized that if I could make it through the toughest time of the year that most only gain the weight, that I could just take it one day at a time and avoid the norm. I have also realized that like many, I have been an emotional eater at night after I finally have time to myself. Now, I try to realize it is not all about the eating and that there are other things to do....like eat a piece of fruit, drink water, or eat a yogurt. Heck, I do not deprive myself by any means. Occasionally, I will allow myself a handful of M & Ms or a cookie. The difference now, I realize that there is a limit!!!
I want to have the energy to play with my kids and to enjoy my life. I am reaching my end goal of 165 or so, and a total of 80lbs lost by June 2011 that will also be my one year anniversary on Spark People and it will then be my 20 th High School Reunion. My gift to myself is a body that I will finally appreciate and love by treating it finally as the way God intended. Here's to a Merry Christmas and a Happy 2011 with a successful weightloss.