The New Scale- Scary
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Ok so last night I went and bought a new scale. I was super excited because after only a week I measured myself and had lost an inch off my waist and an inch off of my hips. I was excited to see the weight that came off too. Well when we went to buy the scale there were so many choices it was overwhelming. There was one on sale that measured your body fat and hydration as well. So my husband suggested getting that one. We did and we got home, he set it up because you can have several users. So I took my weight and I had lost a pound. Initially I was happy because hey 1 pound is better than gaining weight. Then it told me my body fat percentage which was 36.2. Wow that is a lot I thought. So I went to the chart that came with the scale and for my age and Height I fall in the high risk category. I still felt pretty good because I thought at least I am doing something about it. Well my husband decides he's going to do his now and if I was thinking I would have told him I didn't want to know what his weight and percentage was. I guess I should tell you he has never had trouble with his weight and can eat and drink anything he wants without gaining an ounce. Well he just has to show me his weight. Its less than mine and his body fat is like 14 percent in the good range. Well, I couldn't help feeling my happiness deflate. I know it should be based on me but I just felt hopeless like all the work I id I will never get to that point. So I made a mistake to deal with my emotions I ate something I shouldn't have to make me feel better. I knew right after it was the wrong thing to do and in all honesty I didn't feel any better afterward in fact I felt worse. now I was letting it ruin all the hard work I did over the last week. So I told my husband I don't want to know his weight I asked him to just keep it to himself because I felt like all my work was diminished by his ultra fast metabolism. He told me he doesn't care about my weight and he loves me anyway. I had to explain to him that its not about if he loves me its about me making changes for myself and ultimately our family toward a better lifestyle. I'm hoping I learned something from this so that eating those extra clories doesn't go to waste but help me learn something about myself and the emotional eating habits. I know I'm human and I'm bound to make mistakes but..... seeing someone who doesn't have to try to be healthy is still frustrating to me. I guess I'll work out my frustrations in my workout today.