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wacky wednesday; follows twisted tuesday & manic monday but before the end thursday.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Monday was a high stress day. Tuesday was a higher stress day. Today is in between both and at 1 tomorrow I will be happier than I have been in a long time.

Why you might ask? I WILL BE DONE FOR THE SEMESTER AND DONE AT THIS SCHOOL! I am so excited for my future as a liscensed cosmetologist, hair stylist & esthetician! :)

&& that is where I will be starting Feb 7th!

So I had a battle with binge eating this week. I have been giving in, but tonight I am prepared to fight. The comments on my blog yesterday really helped to pull me out of a funk. So I am CRAVING cheesesteaks && I there is nothing in my apartment except chipped beef so I am making a cheesesteak melt with tomato. I figure if I need some sort of comfort I am going to make it a healthy comfort so that I dont have the guilt hours later.

I go home friday and because I am currently unemployed I will be job searching && WORKING OUT ALL THE TIME. I am so excited to have the time and energy and 0 stress to actually enjoy a run. Plus, my mom is going to help me learn to cook some healthy meals for when I return back to my apartment. Again, any recipies or ideas are welcome :)

My body is a machine and I need to give it the right fuel to properly work and give me the ability to use it to reach my goal.

A little note to myself,

Dear Jessica,
Life is going to throw obstacles in your way. It is going to test you and stress you and make you want to curl into a ball and order everything greasy, cheesy and fried on the delivery menu. It is not worth it. Stress sucks, but do you remember that feeling when you looked at the scale and it said 170.0 You were so close to the 160's && you let it slip away by falling back into old habits. Do you remember that feeling when you ran outside in the blistering wind and managed to move over a mile? Those feelings trump the comfort found in stuffing your face with highly caloric and unhealthy foods. You are worth this. You can do this. Keep trying. Do not give up.

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    the school looks amazing :) we can do this :)
    3567 days ago
    Progress not perfection, doll! You are doing it!!!
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    I love the way you finished this blog. You are definately worth it and won't give up! I say those things to myself all the time!
    3567 days ago
    emoticon School's out and now you look toward a new year with a new job and a healthier, happier, more fit YOU!
    3567 days ago
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    Very nice blog. We'd all do well to read that letter to ourselves each day!
    3567 days ago
    I loved the note to self too. SO HAPPY FOR YOU to be done with school, I just graduated in May, and it's the best feeling in the world. =D Congrats girl!
    3567 days ago
  • WOODY113
    Loved the letter to yourself! You are worth this, and you can do it! Metro looks like an awesome place! Hope you have a great visit home.
    3568 days ago
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