CASSARAH

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Just Can't Do It

Sunday, December 12, 2010

It's all just not working right now. I'm gaining weight because the more I want to be healthy the more I eat because I'm not healthy. Issues with family and I'm just frustrated. We can't even get the holiday decorations up without the family fighting. I have no will power right now. So logically I can remember that will power is finite, we only have so much and aparently I use mine up with my children in not punishing them as strict as I was punished and have a natural inclination to do. I also remember that the subconscious mind has a hard time with negatives so by saying, "don't eat the cake" you'll first think, "eat the cake" and it takes a while for the subconscious mind to imagine not eating the cake.

I realize I'm being counter productive in so many areas of my life. I understand the ways to make my goals and follow through with those goals. I just don't do it. It's all there. How to be healthy, the motivation to be healthy, everything. It's all there. I just can't do it. If I give up on being healthy it makes me want to give up on everything else. If I can't be healthy I can't be a massage therapist because who takes a therapist seriously if she isn't healthy herself? I won't be able to continue dog grooming because my body will start breaking down with the extra weight. I'll have a hard time sleeping, hard time moving, mentally I won't be healthy and I can't parent like that so I can't be a good mom, why be a mom at all. It's a terrible downward spiral. Everything in my life revolves around me being healthy. I'm not talking super model skinny. Just healthy. Active. all that stuff. :( I'm just upset and needing to vent. I'm sure I'll be right as rain when I wake up in the morning.
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  • JTREMBATH
    emoticon emoticon emoticon Just believe that you can do it and you will. Think possitive.
    3606 days ago
  • HARRYSMOM
    I want to commend you on your well written post. I have no idea how often I have found myself in the place that you describe. For me my emotions are so strong I could not write everything down as you did. I hope that just venting helped you but I have a couple ideas that have helped me. When I feel that I am trying to be everything for everyone I think of ONE thing I can do for myself. If I can't do something when I would like I plan something. I can't believe how helpful it is to have something to look forward to. Something else I have found helpful is to counter a negative thing with something I am grateful for. emoticon
    3606 days ago
  • DIVAT26
    I feel the same way. Things in our lives effect us so easy may cause us to eat wrong. When this happens,just move on and do what we are suppose to do. Im not seeing any results of me working out and i feel like just eating what I wont but i wont. We have goals we gotta reach!!! Stay encouraged
    3607 days ago
  • FITFABME2
    You CAN do it!! Don't believe anything else!!! emoticon
    3607 days ago
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