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Friday, December 10, 2010

emoticonHi there,thanks for stopping by.
I felt I needed to write a blog about this years weight loss..OR lack of emoticon
I started my journey 2/21/09 at my highest weight EVER..314 lbs!! emoticonI was so humiliated that I couldn't even tell anyone my weight..

It was ALL because of GOD that I found Spark emoticonI was on fire for getting healthy!!
I was kicking pounds to the curb right,and left!! WINNING challenges!! I loved it..LOVED the journey..Loved my new friends on Spark emoticonAnd I was doing it the healthy way.A way I had never tried before.
By the end of that first year on Spark I had lost 94 lbs!! For the first time in my life (that I can remember)I weighed in at 220 lbs!! emoticonI could do things I never had before..I had energy!!
emoticonThen the horrible PLATEAU hit!! Well after not seeing any results I slacked..BIG TIME!! In fact I gained almost 20 lbs back this year..This whole year for me weight loss wise has been a waste emoticonI have LOST strength I once had..I have LOST determination!!
emoticonI will SHOUT WHY it has been a waste..
I found a NEW love for Taco Bell..Sometimes twice in one day!! emoticon
I wasn't consistent with tracking my food..
I wasn't consistent with my exercise!! I would do it a couple days a week..BUT that wasn't enough..
I could go on and on about what happened this year..Heartbreaking events emoticonBUT that is no excuse..GOD was right there with me..So I have NO excuse.
Yes I am being hard on myself..BUT hey I think I have to..A year is just too long to let go of my health.
emoticonI am HAPPY to report that for 2 weeks I have exercised CONSISTENTLY !!
My goal is to aim for 10 minutes minimum 6 days a week..I always do more..BUT hey its easy to just get up to do 10 minutes.

I guess I kinda needed to write this all out for myself..Kinda clear my head..So I don't feel like I'm hiding it all..Yes some health issues have played a role in this journey..BUT that is no excuse for me to stay off track for SO long.
emoticonSo with a lot of PRAYER..and the new year..I will write a NEW blog,with pictures..From when I first started..to now.Also with all my GOALS for 2011.
emoticonNot only will I be starting FRESH,with NEW goals..
My Team 8 Week Battle #11 will be starting FRESH as well..With lots of "POSITIVE" changes.

emoticonIf you read this,and your one of my Warriors..PLEASE feel free to SparkMail me with any ideas you may have..This is a Team.I want to help as many people as I possibly can.With your suggestions I can create something GREAT!! The Battlefield is awesome..But sometimes there comes a time when a little "change" is needed!!

Thank you so much for the support you give..I love my Spark Family.
God Bless..and Happy Holidays!! Or should I say..HAPPY Birthday JESUS!!
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    Yeah this sounds like my echo too.I have decided to plan everything for next year and just go for it no matter how hard it is i know i can do it.God has blessed me i just need to learn how better to use it and i'm sure if i can give up smoking i can stick to my new habits i just have to give them a chance.

    You'v done amazing so far but don't lose sight of where your heading take 2011 by the horns and let it take you to places you'v never been.
    3837 days ago
  • LJRW170
    First off, you did great losing 100 pounds. That's a fantastic step in the right direction. The best part of you right now is that you caught yourself before you gained 100 pounds back, and instead only gained 20. I lost 40 and gained 10. The point is that all of your work is not undone, and now that you're aware, you can make the changes you need to make to turn it all around.

    Take care! emoticon
    3838 days ago
    YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! I have really struggled since the summer. I was maintaining my loss for awhile, but then all of a sudden the scale started going up. It happened so fast! It must have been because I wasn't as active anymore due to the weather change. Food is my biggest hurdle! I love to eat. I wish I didn't, but I do. So this is something that I have to struggle with EVERYDAY. I have gained about 20 lbs too. And like everyone has said, at least we haven't given up! If I had, I would be back up another 50 lbs! I know we can do it. I try to tell myself- it's only a small amount...at least it's not starting all over! Thanks for giving us your heart. It always feels better that way.

    I'm cheering for you!
    3838 days ago
    I agree with all of these people. I'm so happy that I've found your battle challenge!

    I also want to say that thank goodness it was only 20 pounds - especially if you were going south of the border sometimes twice/day! That place can be dangerous!

    Acknowledgment is a big step, and the fact that you're still active is huge. Life gets busy, life gets fun, life gets tough; but the fact that you didn't completely lose control of life, means that you're getting some key learnings in this process.
    3839 days ago
    I had much the same kind of year!!!! Let's make Battle #11 really work for us!!!! We CAN do this!!!!
    Hugzz ~ Jae emoticon
    (Red Squad)
    3840 days ago
    This is a great plan! Keep going with the ten minutes six days a week workouts. Cut yourself slack for the holidays. That is NO NEGATIVE self-talk. But do PLAN ahead for those feasts. Don't waste your time on the taco bell crap--if you are going to cheat, treat yourself to something--just one something--that is more decadent than taco trash.

    I like you. I bet you are going to do great. You are so honest with yourself and open. You are going to make it.
    3840 days ago
    You know what?...life happens. Nothing you did was a waste. It was a learning experience. You now know exactly how to lose weight and get healthy; and you are also perfectly clear on what happens if you don't stick to your plan and instead head for Taco Bell. You can make that choice every single day. The key here is to own it. Know that it is okay to opt for Taco Bell once in a while...and it is also okay to enjoy it. But at the same time, you MUST acknowledge that too much will be disastrous for you in terms of weight loss/health. It is YOUR decision to make. Don't close your eyes to the fact that you are making that decision...each and every day. If you own it - possibly through blogging about it more often - you will for sure make the right decision more often than not...and while it may take a little longer, you will still be heading in the right direction.
    3840 days ago
    You did it once, you can do it again. Plateaus are a bummer. Hang in there. Good luck!
    3840 days ago
    You are devoted to being healthy and that is the important thing. Keep up the good work.
    3840 days ago
    Oh my BEAUTIFUL friend!

    I am so proud of you in so many ways. First that you lost almost 100 pounds, that is huge. Second that even though you slipped you did not leave SparkPeople. Third, that you are an awesome leader and our team would be DEAD without you. Forth, that you are an awesome mommy to Dakota, who we both know is a special gift from God.

    There are so many others but I have to get dressed for church and I will be late. We are having a Christmas concert titled "I'll Be Home for Christmas." So excited to go.

    Love and hugs,
    3840 days ago
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