Yesterday I learned some disturbing news about my boss; that he was really the instigator in trying to get rid of me last year. Whole long story, turmoil, anyway the inbetween guy got let go because he did more than try to fire me... he was just a plain idiot.
Then someone else just kind of pissed me off royally with attitude.
Needless to say I came in today with a bad attitude. Morale is down here at my company as it is with a lot of decisions that have been made, etc, etc. Yeah I know it's everywhere. But then they turn around and say "we're all about the employees"... "we made 20% profit", "we're capping your raises or not giving any at all".. you know those kind of stories. I'm fine if you're not about the employees, just don't tell me you are and then your actions speak the opposite. Hypocrisy, I believe is the correct word anyway... I'm on a total tangent here.
Oh someone told me they would give me tickets to the Mavericks game tonight, awesome tickets.. but instead they were given away to someone else. Oh, nice, thanks for getting my hopes up for something good in my week. Bastard!! (sorry if that offends anyone).
So I ate my lunch today... at 9:00 am... now I did get to work at 5:30 am so for some people that would constitute lunch. But.. I still have to make it until 3:00. Argh. Then I'm mad, I'm hostile, I'm depressed. My husband's birthday is Sunday, I was hoping to surprise him with that game tonight.
You know you need some boots, go to DSW at lunch
No Sherri, the scale is about to break the plateau, it's actually moved a couple of pounds, you might break 170 this next week.
No it's not you stupid logical thinker. It hasn't moved in four months, why do you think her fat body is suddenly going to give up some lard now.
You stupid devil, of course it's going to give up some ill gotten pounds because she's still been working although her mental state has been a little off. She's done pretty good at maintaining her exercise for someone with so much stress.. and it's probably YOUR fault she got sick enough to miss the gym for two weeks.
Of course it was my fault. I brought all this stress on her. She can't handle it. She's just going to start drinking beer, Pepsi and eating all that pasta again because she can't control her impulses. That and Rolos, you know how she loves Rolos.
Why are you so hateful? She's trying and she hasn't had Rolos in MONTHs. She gets one package about every three months when you and TOM gang up on her. What's YOUR problem.
I don't like to lose. You know I'm her competitive side.
No you're not. You're evil and manipulative. You won't let go of her past, keep her self esteem down, made her feel fat when she wasn't, kept her from going after her dreams, now she doesn't even know what those are because she's so messed up.
I'm not sorry. That's my job.
Fine then. It's my job to step on your head and beat you down. and you know what.. she's going to the gym at lunch and she's not going to go to Whataburger or Subway or whatever and spend money on junk food because she already ate her lunch. Because she has a can of soup at her desk. She's going to eat that.
Whatever.. I'll catch her on another weak moment
Maybe, but I'll be there to protect her and with me, we will find those dreams and beat you down some more. Get over yourself you freaking devil.
ME - Went to the gym, ate my soup. On my second 100 ounces of water. I guess I win for the day?
Keep at it guys!
PS I still do need those boots and I have a coupon... but yeah, at least I didn't go at lunch