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A Balancing Act

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

When I was racing every weekend in November, I was thinking ahead to the big Goofy race weekend in Walt Disneyworld in January. I know I'm not ready, and I've almost accepted that Goofy is going to have to wait until another year when I'm healed and fit. Still, I had intended to go full monty this month, making training my top priority and go into WDW weekend in the best shape I can be.

At the same time, it's been a strangely crazy intense time in every aspect of my life. The Special Tribunal for Lebanon is rumored to be handing over the case to the judge to issue indictments. For those of you who know what I'm talking about, things are very tense here right now. I'm working a lot to get as far as I can as fast as I can in case things turn ugly and works grinds to a stop.

After years of working in a dingy, grotty dump of an office, I finally found some cash and had it redone. Good-bye gross stained poop-coloured capet - hello gorgeous PVC flooring. So long furniture I -- literally -- swiped off a rubbish heap, and hello brand spankin' new fancy furniture. I have a big L-shaped desk with a matching triple bookcase, and a hot red sofa and matching chair. My old coffee table was, I kid you not, a lump of wood that we'd lacquered black. Now it's an ultramodern, super cool little number. Aiyeee! I also cleaned up all the random junk, and my office is clean, beautiful, and uncluttered for the first time in ... well, since I started. I've noticed that I have more energy when I work now. Isn't it funny that my environment affects me so?

It got me to thinking. My home and life are also cluttered, and they drain and distract me. I don't want to lose focus on my fitness goals, but re-doing my office has made me see how much my environment affects me.

I'm cleaning and decluttering my house. It's exhausting. I feel how unfit I am because I get tired so easily, but it's more than that. Just looking at all the "stuff" sucks the energy out of me. Don't get me wrong -- I'm not a hoarder by any stretch. It's just that I live in an open loft that has no storage space. Everything is out in the open, and it is just all too much.

Finally, I have a long mental to-do list. Constantly running it in my mind to try to stay on top of it is draining and distracting me as well. it just seems never ending. Again, it's not time management. I have great time management skills. What I lack is the energy to make the best use of my time.

Sooo, I'm trying to balance my need to clean and de-clutter my home with needing to get those things on my mental to-do list done with the fact that I only have a few weeks until I try to complete the race I've been gunning for since I first began training for races back in 2008. It isn't going to be easy, but I'm trying to make a plan to get a little further on each goal every day. I want to welcome 2011 feeling better about myself mentally, physically, and emotionally. emoticon emoticon
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  • RAVEN1025
    I hear you! I've realized how much all the clutter affects me. I am working on decluttering our place.
    I am happy you got to redo your office. It sounds hot! Best of luck with everything. You are amazing!
    2748 days ago
    Celebrate your many accomplishments! As far as decluttering goes, I was a hoarder but last year I decided to experience the pain and let it all go. I don't miss any of it. Well, maybe this one sexy size 16 outfit I had. But, we have to sacrifice for the big picture. Be patient with your energy level. All you can do is eat right, exercise, and get enough sleep. I find that sex increases my energy level. emoticon
    2753 days ago
    decluttering is good! I am trying to do that as well!!! Good luck to us both!
    2755 days ago
    I'm exhausted just reading all that you are accomplishing! You are definitely making strides!
    2756 days ago
    Good luck!! You can do everything you desire!! Just remember that even when it doesn't feel like it you are moving forward one step at a time! Eventually you will look back and be like "wow!!" I accomplished so much with my environment!
    2756 days ago
    Environment has a HUGE impact on how you feel. I suggest, for your home and mental decluttering, that you write lists! I'm sure you're already a list sounds like it, anyway...but I LOVE seeing things crossed off...I feel more accomplished and productive. Also, for your home decluttering, try setting a timer for 15 on something until the timer goes off and take a break (I usually set the time for breaks, too...or I end up never getting back to work!!). You'll be amazed at how much you can get done in such small bursts...and you won't feel overwhelmed!
    2756 days ago
    Working on the decluttering will definately help in all facets of your life. Less stuff really frees up your mind! Good luck!
    2756 days ago
    I know exactly what you are saying..environment can elate you or suck the life out of you!! good for you for doing it...what a big difference it will make! As usual, you are wonderful..i am in awe of your training and perseverence!! Hugs
    2756 days ago
    Yeah on the new office and yes, clutter does suck the life out of you. If you get the time (ha ha) order the book off of Amazon "Does this Clutter Make by Butt Look Fat?" by Peter Walsh. He address being overwieght and clutter.

    Baby steps until you can run like the wind with all of this. Don't get discouraged, just look at all that you have already done. You can do this.
    2756 days ago
    My husband and I are in the same process! We are trying to do a project every weekend to de clutter. Making over your work environment is a great idea! I wish I could have carpet and bright walls, but being in a MD office, it doesn't really fly! Great job! emoticon
    2756 days ago
    Sounds great! & I know EXACTLY how you feel, w/the clutter sucking the life & energy out of ya...
    Unfortunately, seems like "Life" always interferes in my clutter-busting efforts - getting ready to post about MY supposed "day of rest", last Sunday...
    2756 days ago
    Way to go! I find with my youngest when the house around him is in choas (like now with Christmas stuff everywhere) he tends to melt down more. Good luck with the house, it will all work out in the end and you will have a great enviroment around you!
    2756 days ago
    Dear Cat!

    Wow! Good for you for re-doing your office. That is a huge start. Yes, noticing that you also need to do the same for your home... well, at least the office is done, right? I hear you about just getting up the mental energy to do things. That's why I'm sparking right now and not tackling the projects I need to do. The irony is that I could be out skiing, but I'm not, because I have too much to do here - and I'm not doing that either. So, I admire you for getting your office done. That is a great accomplishment.

    Best wishes for your race goals. I know that you can do it. You have already accomplished soooooo much!

    2756 days ago
    Having a makeover is always a big boost! Your office sounds wonderful now (not sure about red furniture LOL wouldn't be my choice). Sorry you don't have the energy to tackle your house. All you can do is whatever you can, one step at a time..
    Good luck with it.
    Stay safe..
    2756 days ago
    De-cluttering sounds like a good idea! You've got the right attitude and the determination - I know you can do it all!

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    2756 days ago
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