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Birthday Wishes to my Brother in Heaven

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Although I come from a large family, the loss of any one creates a huge hole in my heart. Both of my parents are father 31 years ago, my mother 2 years ago. However the pain of losing them some days does not begin to compare to the loss I still feel over the loss of my older sister...only 18 months older than me and my younger brother, only six years younger than me. Imogene became ill with encephalitis at the age of ten and lived a little more than year...being hospitalized the entire time. I was ten the year she died. I still remember her funeral and the service at her grave site as if it were yesterday. Her grave is only about 15 miles from my house and the little white lamb sitting on the top of her headstone still looks the same as it did 47 years ago. My younger brother was killed 28 years ago by a drunken driver who was never charged and "got away with it." Clyde was only 23 years old, the father of three young sons and the love of my daughters' and my lives. He and my SIL had been bowling and he was walking home from the bowling alley when the son of the city mayor swerved off the road and hit him...killing him instantly. The pain of his death is very strong today as I remember him today...the day of his birth. Sending you birthday wishes in heaven, my dear brother. My wish for you today would be that you could know the fine young gentlemen your sons, and the ladies my daughters, have would be very proud of them as we all are. You may no longer have an earthly body but you still have a piece of my heart where you will remain forever. Your job on Earth was finished so God took you home.
What moves through me today is a silence, a quiet sadness, a longing for one more day, one more word, just one more touch or hug from you. I may not understand why you left this earth so soon, or why you left before I was ready to say good-bye, but little by little, I began to remember not just that you died, but that you also lived. And that your life has given me many memories to beautiful to forget. I will always love and miss you. Happy Birthday, Clyde!!!
Although I have been sad today, I still have to thank God for my family and all the wonderful memories I will always have...both the happy memories and the sad and painful ones. Praise him for dropping us all into one family together.
Praise God for ALL the blessings that I have received and not just for the few positives I have listed at the end of my blog. Blessings surround us always!!! May God continue to bless you as He has blessed me.
Tomorrow is the First of December. May the new month bring you new hope and a new chance to accomplish your plans and reach your goals.
Remember to look around and see all the positive things happening in your life and be thankful for them...
Blessings, love and hugs,

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My brother and sister...May they RIP
My parents...May they RIP
My family...all the good and the bad
McKenzie's smiling face
My ability to walk
There is good in everyone and everything...
You can do it...if you try!!!
A new day every 24 hours to try and get it right
My family and friends both at home and on Spark People
Spark People which allows me to keep in touch with many friends
Marla's Miracle
Serving lunches at the Senior Citizens Center refreshing and delicious
Healthy foods
Gluten free foods

Thank you so much for reading my blogs, supporting and encouraging me always!!! May God continue to be with you and bless you!!!
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  • DEE107
    Its hard some days especially the holidays and their birthdays , the memomories should always be positive and bright .. esp your brothers death , he might have gotten away with it here but he has to answer for it one day.. Hugs and God bless
    2725 days ago
    Hello Helen
    I'm sorry for your loss and I know it's hard to let go of anyone or family member when they have died. I think of it this way: they are in a better place than where we are and they are not suffering or hurting anymore. And that we will see them again in heaven and they will greet at the gates with open arms.They are ours Angels and watching over us.
    My Mom has been gone 26 months tomorrow. To this day, I still not believe she has been gone that long. It has been extremely hard on the holidays, b/c I was the only child of 7 (of hers) that kept in touch over the years. I get emotional when I talk about Mom.
    I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts. Maybe someday it will be easier. I am here for you anytime and
    if I am not online, you know how to get in touch with me. Take care and talk to you soon. God Bless You during these holidays and always....
    Always, ERNA emoticon
    2725 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/2/2010 10:06:37 PM
    Oh, Helen. *tighttighthugs* I love you.
    2726 days ago
    I carry the memories of many special people whom I have lost, including my Sadie. I remember each special moment, and even the everyday moments; I laugh at the silly memories, and cry for the sad ones.

    I know losing loved ones is a life lesson, but they are so often unfair.

    I wish you peace and comfort. And I join you in wishing Clyde a very Happy Birthday.
    2727 days ago
    You have certainly suffered a lot of loss in your life yet you remain poised and with such grace...your loved ones would be proud of the person you have become...God Bless
    2727 days ago
    I just bet he sang Happy Birthday too.
    2727 days ago
    What a great tribute to your brother and other family members.
    (((cow cuddles)))
    2727 days ago
    I always have good memories of the family I lost to heaven emoticon my friend
    2727 days ago
    To me, one of the most intriguing aspects of being a person is our ability to recall happy memories. Perhaps a lyric from a song i wrote may help: "In the midst of our sadness our memories remain, to lessen our burden and to help ease our pain." Be strong and replay your happy memories of all of you together often. -- Lou
    2727 days ago
    emoticon My heart and prayers go out to all of you that are missing loved ones this holiday season! My parents are both gone, they both died before I turned 26 years old. Also, my middle sister who lost three children to death in various ways, and decided to end her own life early due to alcohol issues and my niece who was only 14 months who strangled in her crib because she could get her feet through the bars, but not hear head! She would have been a young adult today! I know my sister in heaven would be so proud of what her daughter would have turned out to be! Also, my Uncle Dwayne who died a few years ago! May all of you rest in peace! You are greatly missed! I can't wait to see you again when the good Lord takes me home! I pray that God gives each of us strength to get through the days ahead and that we never forget the good times we had with our parents, children, brothers, sisters and other relatives who have passed on before us! emoticon emoticon
    2727 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/30/2010 10:24:47 PM
    Oh Helen,that was so moving and spiritual.I am in tears emoticon I feel so empathetic for you.Big emoticon emoticon I am so sorry,it never seems fair,but you really have a positive and strong attitude about it and I hope the comfort of heaven and the Father having him safe with Him helps in your sadness you feel today.I am here for support if you need me,just a click away.Looking forward to a new month and a Holiday Season too! emoticon emoticon Diana emoticon emoticon
    2727 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/30/2010 9:51:01 PM
    Hugs from me to you! I loss my brother when I was 15 and he was not quite 13. Home babysitting our younger siblings. Gun accident! Has forever altered my life! And since I am almost 62, it has been many a year but yes sometimes it is way too fresh in the mind.
    Thank you
    2727 days ago
    Helen, that was so touching to read! My brother, Steve, died of a brain tumor when he was only 47 (he was 3 years older than me), and I still think about it a lot. I don't remember the day he died (isn't that strange?), but I always remember his birthday and I miss him. I'm so glad we know that Jesus will end all the suffering and death and that one day we'll be reunited in Heaven!
    2727 days ago
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    Helen, when my mom died, Daddy said that to remember her birthday we should enjoy heavenly hash ice cream and angel food cake. I miss her still. I can't imagine losing a sister at 10 and a younger brother in the prime of his life.

    Blessings and love!

    2727 days ago
    Helen may God's awesome arms comfort you.
    May you look forward to seeing them all again in Heaven. Who knows perhaps soon, every day gets us closer to the rapture one of my pastors always says.
    Praying and thinking of you.
    Great blog!!
    2727 days ago
  • LMSW55
    Momma Bear, I am thinking of you as my dad's birthday was Nov 29th and he, too, is in heaven. He only departed his human body 2 months ago.
    Your journey has a lot of layers to it. Remember, that we are all teachers and students, planting seeds. Oh, how your brother, sister and parents have planted gardens, full of blossoming bouquets.
    2727 days ago
    May God comfort you as you look forward to the day you will all meet again in heaven.

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    2727 days ago
    Oh mama bear i share your pain and your sadness and happiness, of your loved ones.I to lost my parents my dad 13 years ago and my mom last nov.29, my beloved grandson,(Scooter) 2 years ago so young, a car accident, the year before he rededicated his life to Jesus. Thank you Jesus. As the song says by Mercy Me. I know they are all dancing with Jesus.This is the time of year i believe we do think of them so much. I know this might sound odd ,i think of my parents often, but i still cry over Scooter, he was my first born Grand child and so young. He had been to Iraq and home for over a year, and then car accident. I did a blog on them. Jesus is dancing with all of our loved ones, can you picture it in your mind.Blessings to you.
    Caroline I love your positive's
    2727 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/30/2010 7:44:21 PM
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    2727 days ago
    emoticon Happy Heavenly Birthday to Clyde.
    2727 days ago
    How bittersweet coping with the loss of a loved one can be. I lost my Mom 3 years ago. I miss her but knowing she is in the arms of Jesus gives me comfort.
    2727 days ago
    Thanks for sharing. Thanks for thinking ahead. I will be thinking of you too.
    2727 days ago
  • OCTOBER2842
    I share your pain, my mom died 42 years ago suddenly at the age of 52 when her heart burst due to a high fever caused by the flu. Today is her birthday too. May they all rest in peace
    2727 days ago
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