Doing some soul searching
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Another Thanksgiving has come and gone. What did Thanksgiving mean to you this year? I have been away from SP for almost a month dealing with some issues at home and I realized that I have much to be thankful for.
My mother is 82 and is in fairly good health but has been having some issues for the last month. The thing that concerns me is her memory, mom is in the early stages of dementia. She remembers her days as a little girl and young woman very vividly but has a hard time remembering what she did yesterday or who she talked to an hour ago. The other day my sister said that she forgot one of her grandkids. She often confused our names and the grandkids and we would joke about it, especially when she would call one of us girls by our brothers name, but she never forgot completely. The other day she had no idea that she forgot her grandson, even when my sister tried to jog her memory.
So, what am I thankful for? I am thankful that I still have my mother in my life and I am trying to make her days as fulfilling as I can. We sit and talk and she tells me stories of when she was little and I tell her stories of what we did over the summer. I try to keep her current on what is going on in her life while she tries to focus on what I am telling her. I feel bad when I sometimes loose my patience with her when she asks me the same thing 5 times. Then I remember when I was a kid and always asking "why, why, why" and she always took the time to answer me. So now I try to emulate my mother and I realize what a wonderful woman she was and still is and I try to model myself after her. I know that the journey ahead will be difficult but I have my family to help me get through it. I have come to realize that I have to take one day at a time and enjoy what I can.