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I might have figured out the secret!!!!

Monday, November 22, 2010

I've heard it said that the more and longer you struggle, the stronger you will become on the upswing! It seems that in the 1.5 years I have been here at SP I spent the first 9 months on the top and then the plateau of 4 months and then the bottom... I kept coming back to SP every day to try to climb out of my perceived hole, and I felt the support of my friends and teammates, there is no doubt.

By the first of November, the struggle I had with the Food Demon was raging full time, and when I had to start taking Rolaids before going to bed, I knew that the inevitable trek out of Onderland had begun... I was terrified! I did not want to go back up over 200 pounds!...but...I was powerless, or so I thought. I wailed and I fought, I ate and I cried and I tried...I re read parts of the Spark and I went back to my early blogs to try to come up with some reason for my state of mind. AND...I kept coming back to SP...knowing in the deepest part of my 'knower' that the answer was here...I did not know where, but I was sure it was hiding...somewhere...

I finally made the decision to start blogging and logging...ah yes, Nutritional Tracking... AND I made a promise to my family in 7 day increments... I could not commit to much more than that. I was afraid of what I would find when I would enter my food...THIS WAS THE MOST DIFFICULT STEP of my 'recovery'. When I WAS tracking my food, I was brutally honest about what passed my lips...but...the more freedom you give yourself with your food, the less your 'disciplined self' will be able to fight the food demon, who, by the way, can charm you into "just one deserve it!" faster than you can blink your eye.

In retrospect, if I had never stopped tracking my food, I probably would be at my goal weight today... this is a hard lesson to learn...but goals and discipline and being honest about what is ACTUALLY passing your lips...well, need I say more? These are the magical tools everyone wants to know about...but don't want to hear about or incorporate into their daily lives.

Metabolism fluctuation aside, discipline is an important part of this journey and I had to swallow a big ol' chunk of pride (I thought I knew how to do this on my own) and now I share this with you...

My prayer is that my friends who are struggling with their program will look at their food tracking habits and taking time to blog, even if it is a two liner to say they need help... I am no where near the perfect mark, but now I have a better hold on what is and has caused my misery and my weight gain...lack of discipline and commitment to myself...All it takes is ten to fifteen minutes of computer time each day ...and using the aforementioned tools... this will help to strengthen your (my) road to recovery!

Tomorrow is weigh in...week two complete!
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    Yes, I agree! You have to get it out in the open and mark it down.

    2725 days ago

    I have stopped by to see how you are doing and I see you are trying to take control. I track my food every day and I am even before I post it clicking on the nutrition to see what it has in it. If I am not satisfied with it I post it for that day but not any other day. If it has too much sodium it goes. I have added more vitamins to track so i know I am eating healthy. It is hard but you have to convince yourself that this is the best thing you can do for yourself. This journey is what is going to make your life better when you get older. Focus on your healthy eating, routine exercises in reaching your final goals. May God watch over you and give you strength. Love the Spark people, teams, friends and learn from them.

    Have a lovely Thanksgiving and give God thanks for all the blessings he has given you..

    2767 days ago
    Thank you so much for your honest blogging! I have had a similar journey and am in the 4 months of plateau stage. I am still tracking my food but not as rigidly as I used to . I will start tracking thoroughly NOW. Like you, I want to stay in Onederland,


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    2768 days ago
    WTG!!! We are all together again we are here!!!

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    2769 days ago
    Atta girl, Marjijane; the best is yet to come. Your focus has returned and you are being ever vigilant. WooHoo!!!
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    Why is it so hard to be honest with ourselves?! I totally know how you feel and what you said about "I had never stopped tracking my food, I probably would be at my goal weight today" is me too.
    Hope your week 2 yeilds good results!
    2769 days ago
    Thank you so much for writing this blog. I've only been at this 3 months but I still have a long way to go and your insights are so helpful!

    Warmest wishes,

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    2769 days ago
    This is just what I needed to read tonight, as I get back on the horse. I was rereading my blogs from August, when life "got in the way" of my entries and I just finished saying If I could only get back on track with tracking foods, then i could really see what was missing from my journey.
    THANK YOU for sharing your words with me (us).
    I'll get back to my blogging now =)
    2769 days ago
    Yes I believe logging in cals is the secret to success! Many diet gurus and books say that you are 1/3 more likely to stay on track, and the biggest bonus to succeeding in the wt loss game is a food diary! That is what logging is! another thing that i think works wonders for me is not eating anything but f&V;s after 8pm at night. It has been my savior! On hard days, and always starts eachday successful! great blog.
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