hanging in there
Sunday, November 21, 2010
There may be a light at the end of the tunnel! I am feeling like the steroids may be finally leaving my system. I am not burning up all the time, finally! Also, I seem to not be quite as hungry all the time. Unfortunately, my hormones seem to still be out of whack, and I am still rather cranky. Hopefully, these will right themselves soon.
I took a deep breath and reset all my info in here. My starting weight, my current weight, a short term goal. I went with the weight the scale told me, rather than what my Wii fit said. I like the Wii's number better, but the one from my scale is probably more accurate. Dangerously close to the all time high I swore I would never see again!
My eating is getting under control, and I am pretty proud of the hubs. He isn't thrilled with South Beach, but outside of a couple of agreed upon cheats, he has been pretty good! His weight is slowly creeping down. I think if he had a pancreas that worked, it would be coming off faster. However, I think given that he is a type one diabetic, he is doing well!
My activity level isn't so great, unfortunately. I am finally not uncomfortably hot, but my neck/shoulder is still pretty painful. It seems like everything takes so much more out of me these days, so when I do force myself to work out, it is pretty low key. On top of that, I had a freak injury to my shoulder on Thursday. I went to bend my right elbow and a sharp, shooting pain went from my shoulder to my elbow. If I kept my arm down at my side it was fine, but if I tried bending or lifting the arm, the pain seared. According to the doc, somehow my shoulder went out and something was pinched in it. She couldn't be entirely sure what was pinched, because she said it is really rare for the pain to shoot down the arm like that. Usually it goes into the back. (I am full of those rare cases!). It was probably some muscle. Basically, when my arm was all relaxed, it kept the space open so it wasn't pinching down. When I contracted the muscle, the space closed down. She got the joint back in, luckily. It was creepy, because I could feel it slide back into place. *shudder*. After icing and rest, I could move it again! It was a bit sore for a couple of days, but now it feels back to normal. That is a relief, because I can only handle so much pain at once!
I am trying to motivate myself to do a little more. It's hard, because I am having a hard time dealing with my limitations. I think of all the stuff I want to do, and that I used to do that I can't do right now because of my neck. I am going to have to focus on looking into modified versions of the things I like doing, instead of laying about and whining. I keep thinking that I will be healed and can go back to normal, but after a year-and-a-half, I just need to suck it up and deal. Can you tell I don't like that???