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80 Lbs Lighter & My Loyal Food Addiction

Friday, November 19, 2010

When I started working for a healthy lifestyle this year, I brought a plethora of false healthy living assumptions along with me. Chief among them was the belief that when my body became healthier, food would not be an issue that would weigh on my mind. Reaching my goals would cure my food addiction, right?

WRONG! I'm the healthiest I've every been and I think about food ALL the time. It's always there, from morning to night. It remains my faithful addiction.

I think of my food addiction as a monster. I spent many years denying its existence because I found it ugly, hurtful and shameful. It's a lumbering, noisy beast that I neglected openly because I didn't want to acknowledge it. I left it roaming loose everywhere it shouldn't have because I denied that I was responsible for it. And it wandered far and wide and spread destruction to not only through my life, but through the lives of my friends and family around me.

Finally I've realized that I own that monstrous food addiction. I'm responsible for those wild cravings. I'm responsible for the undesired results. And if I don't keep it in check, I won't have the healthy life I want for me and for those I love.

So now I work to control the addiction and cravings so they don't control me. So they don't "eat" at me. Instead of allowing it to wander dangerously, I have the addiction corralled behind the limits and barriers of planning out my food tracker in advance. Doing so focuses the attention of my addiction on the healthy meals and snacks I'm allowed in the day instead of whatever it feels like consuming, helping me make healthy decisions more often.

I still think about food CONSTANTLY. The addiction remains steady and loyal and very noisy. But that's okay, because it babbles about and craves the healthy options I've set out for it. I can look forward to savoring every bite of a new menu crafted with passion instead of mindlessly consuming whatever whim the addiction thinks it wants. I also get excited for the challenge of finding new healthy tastes and substitutions I've never tried before to give the addiction new information and treats.

By tending to it and caring for it, my monster of a food addiction is leashed, trained and mostly well-behaved. I just have to invest the daily effort to keep it that way.
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    I loved this! I'm dealing with food addiction too, and I like the way you've made yours like a pet--to be accepted and cared for and maybe even loved for what it is. I think I'm going to try and maintain that attitude and see if it makes it easier to deal with it. Thanks for sharing!
    2699 days ago
    Hmmm...so what do we do with monsters that do not go away? You have yours leashed and trained but still present. I am wondering if I still have the addiction i had. I know I was addicted for years and years and the eating that resulted brought on the weight gain. It could be that, by keeping it leashed and trained, it will grow smaller and smaller and one day disappear. I think that probably you should also trade your food thoughts for "something else" thoughts. So that when a food thought comes through...you can recognize it...and trade it consciously for something else. I think that, as long as you are giving time to the thoughts, they will remain. If you give them less time, they will dissipate. You're doing great...anyone who can train a monster, can win at this game! Keep sparking! (Love your new 80 lb pic, btw.) emoticon emoticon
    2741 days ago
    Yep, me and my saber-toothed carbie-sweet tiger! Just like that old song "Me & Arrow"...wherever I go he goes...

    I often refer to it as "sleeping" until I make a wrong food choice and awaken my sleeping carbie-sweet tiger!

    But often it's there in the back of my mind doing all the things those monsters will do to get one's attention!

    And no...been through WAY to much to believe this thing will ever simply "go away" or disappear! Keep it tamed, keep it sleeping, leashed, but always, always deal with it! Or it will deal with YOU!

    2742 days ago
    This is great information, Tina! Well-written and so relatable! Thanks for sharing so we don't all think we're alone with our demons. Kathy
    2742 days ago
  • MMS354
    Hey I just came across your blog. Congrats on all of your hard work and success - you look great! And this blog is very well written and thought provoking. Thanks for sharing!
    2742 days ago
    any good suggestions for sticking to food tracking?!?! it seems i do really well for a few days then fall off the wagon for a week then back on- i just need to focus on it and i think i would be doing great!
    2742 days ago
  • CHLOE12343
    Tina-I love your blogs they are so well-written and very helpful. I am getting about about logging my food but it is really just a beginning. I have gotten the exercise thing down fairly well now. Today I have an aerobics class.

    2742 days ago
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