Where did the year go??
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
I have been MIA from spark off and on most of the year. It has been a rough year. Seems like the last couple years have been really rough.
I thought of leaving spark but then on the other hand I miss it. And I honestly need it and need to start using the wonderful tools here as well as I have some wonderful friends here =)
I'v been having some health issues, medication changes, down moments, no energy, total lost of motivation =/ Don't know what happened. Well I do it was a rough and sad year =/ I guess I've kind of given up on myself and thats not good. I've gained weight this year some I don't know how others you know emotional roller coaster seems to go hand in hand with food. Actually my biggest culprit is soda! That Dr. Pepper. At one point I had stopped drinking it and just had it on rare occassion. But it's been my crutch my comfort for some reason and it puts the weight on me fast. So time to wean off it again.
I have to turn things around sometimes I see "I'm worth it" other times I lose sight of that for some reason. My doctor keeps telling me I have to do this for "ME" and that I have to see "I'm worth it" so those are things I have to work on. Some days because of health issues it hurts just to get out of bed! I have to learn to work with the changes. Not give up but just take little baby steps. I need to learn when I can push myself and when I need to not stop or give up but to not push to much. Like with many things it's a balancing act. Right now I'm not balancing to well I'm leaning way off to the side.
So I still have time to make some changes in 2010 and I'm not giving up! Just have to refocus! Maybe 2011 will be my year! =)