Still Frustrated but had wake up call
Monday, November 15, 2010
Okay I binged a little.. a lot this weekend. So I have to work a lot extra. Can't complain about a plateau if I'm screwing it up right?
Since I've lost the 20+ pounds, the knee pain that I have had in my left knee has all but gone away. Well until last Wednesday. I had achiness in both knees Wednesday. Okay, they are arthritic, and the weather is changing, so maybe that's it. Thursday I was bowling and by the third game, I was almost in tears. The left knee hurt as bad as it had before the weight loss. I wasn't sure I was going to finish. I did, we went home and I iced it, wrapped it and of course took the requisite drugs. If I do something stupid and gain any of this weight back, that will be a daily occurence, not just a once in awhile thing. So I have to remember that. and I think that was my wakeup call.
I just hate my body's reaction to stress right now. Everyone around me loses weight when they are stressed. WHY can't I? Why do I gain it, even if I don't bing? So frustrating.
I'm basically just blabbing right now. Needed to vent. Thinking about pawning my wedding ring to pay for some expenses. My husband just refuses to let me do that, but it may be our last option. I see no light at the end of the tunnel to make things better.