Onederland and Self Realizations
Sunday, November 14, 2010
It's been....a while....since my last blog.
To start off, I hit onederland! I am now 199 pounds. I haven't seen that number since the 6th grade, thats a long long time.
In all my happiness I'm still sad. When I told those closest to me, its like no one understood how very important that number is. My joy was quickly ripped like a rug from under me.
In the midst of reaching 199, I'm also dealing with a breakup. It's been really really rough and we are both trying to make the best of the situation.
I've also realized that I'm never going to be one of those awesome motivating people that logs onto spark everyday filling my tracker and posting on all the boards. I'm not the best team leader and I'm very fickle with my use of this site. Now, I'm not saying I don't follow spark, but for me its not realistic to log on every single day. I pressure myself to and it never really works out. I apologize for that but I'm just not on the computer a whole lot. I am following my spark guidelines and its working out just fine for me.
So I'm so very sorry to my team and my friends on here that don't hear from me for weeks on end. It's not that I don't care, I'm just not on my computer a lot.
I wish everyone the best success in their goals. I'm so grateful for my weightloss and despite not feeling supported I'm proud of me. Thats what counts right?
oh and I went skydiving!
not under 200 in this picture, but 202 =]