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Just a lot of rambling about stuff!!!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Hello everyone! I just have a lot of small things running through my mind today so thought I would try a blog to get them all out!

So far this week has been so much better then last. Of course we have not been as busy so I'm not as stressed out. But I maintained my positive outlook here. I refuse to let anything BF does or doesn't do to effect my moods too! (that is key) But surprise surprise...when I am being more positive he tends stop doing the things that irritate me anyway. Funny how that happens. I think re-starting my yoga has helped a lot too. 3 days in a row now. My arms and shoulders are feeling it, all those push-ups into downward facing dog are working some muscles.

As for weight...well now this one is bugging the crap out of me. I'm also a little worried. So I'm taking action now. About 8 weeks ago I got to my lowest....129.5. The next week I had crept up to 130.2 or something. For weeks now it's been up as high as 135. This week on weigh in day I was at 133.2. Now I know that this is not a lot. But as we all know, those first few pounds can creep on and we don't think anything about it until we are back at 30 pounds heavier and wonder what happened. The thing is I am wondering what is happening. At first I thought it was water weight. Like too much salt that week, or maybe TOM. But if it was that then the weight should go back down too. Well it's not. I am taking control before I look up and I am at 165 again. NEVER!!! But here is the thing, I am not over eating. I'm not binging, eating fat, cheese, fried foods. I'm not enjoying buffets, ice cream, cake anything!! I have basically stuck with the same foods I've been eating all along. When I snack it is usually with fruit. The most fattening thing I have around is peanut butter and I don't eat more then a tbls at a time. But I am re-evaluating. Something in this picture is not working. So today I went back to oatmeal for breakfast and subway for lunch. Going to eat chicken and veggies for dinner. I'm going back to basics for a few weeks to see if I can get back down to at least 130. I have not been tracking my food as diligently as I should, but like I said I'm not out there eating McDonalds either. I think I might be over judging my portions again or something. But anyway, like I said I am going back to basics for a few weeks and seeing if that helps. It's also got to help that I am done with my work out vacation and am back to doing something physical almost daily. I have faith that it will work but also know I am not going to let myself get back there again!

I also finally got my information to do the Avon Walk!! Wow there is so much info there! I'm super worried about the fund raising! I sent out a preliminary email to mostly my family and my BF's family and a few friends, letting them know I was going to do this and that I would need support ect. I thought I would at least get an email from someone saying wow, that is awesome. Or we'll make sure to donate before April. Or something. NOT ONE response. Not even from my mother! And I hadn't told her yet. So not sure if it's the fundraising, everyone deleted the message, or no one thinks I can do this or what??? It has truly hurt my feelings. I'm not going to push it a lot though till after the first of the year. I just really wanted some WTG's or something though, some form of recognition!!

I am going to put up a jar here and ask for donations at the shop. Maybe I'll start getting something in. As for the training, wow!!! I have 27 weeks or so until the walk. So I am doing the 24 week training program for the 39 mile walk. It starts off pretty good. 14 miles a week at first for a month, then it slowly creeps up until one week I am walking 42 miles. That is going to be tough. I guess no tougher then the actual walk will be. The cool thing is that during the week it is basically like my schedule already is. It will be the weekend walks that will start increasing and being difficult. But I think since I am starting so early that I can really build up to it and be fine.

Well I'm going to quit rambling now! But I have one thing to leave you with. Don't you just love it when your rings spin on your fingers now?? It reminds me how far I have come!! Love to twirl the rings....LOL!!!

You all have an amazing day!!!!
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    I think it is always important to get back to basics and tweak things from time to time. Being aware is key! I think it is AWESOME that you are doing the Avon walk. Best of luck with your training. Keep up the great work!
    2930 days ago
    You have an amazing day, too! Love the loose rings!! Right before I got to my fattest DH had a new wedding band made for me, but guess what, since it was wider than the old one, it would not fit. I didn't wear it, and Mike, ever the diplomat, never said anything. It was a real Non-scale victory to be able to wear the ring again! Now it is loose! Amazing now much fat is stored on our fingers!
    2930 days ago
  • AJBOYER222
    I think it's great that you are doing the Avon Walk! You rock! The fund raising will come, keep sending updates every few weeks on how the training is going and maybe different facts about the walk and what the money being raised will be used for. Sometimes people want to think about what they can contribute and plan to come back to the email and reply later. That might be why you haven't gotten much response yet. It will come, you are doing an awesome thing and your friends and family will take notice and support you! Congrats! Can't wait to hear how training and everything goes!
    2931 days ago
    Wooohoooo for the walk! You're gonna do great!

    Take a deep breath and twirl those rings! You've come a long way and should hold your head high! Stress is no good. Tell it to go away! emoticon emoticon
    2931 days ago
    You're doing great. Remember it could be stress that is putting the weight on.
    2931 days ago
    Wow! What a walk!!!

    I'm glad you're back to doing Yoga in the morning. I remember when it used to start your day off right. In fact, I'm going to try it too. My goal is to do yoga every day for 30 days, inspired, of course, by you! :)

    You are doing great! Keep up the great work! Plus, the training for the Avon Walk will get you back to where you want to be, too. Hugs!!!!
    2931 days ago
    How many miles is that? 42?? Wow! You're doing so great!
    2931 days ago
  • RONIE11
    yes I do love those rings... I wear latex gloves and I have to secure them with my thumb while I'm takeing them off so I don't loose the rings. My weight is doing the same thing and my head it doing the same thing.. I think back... now what did I eat???/ and I blame salt for most of it... I am watching this closely... in the back of my mind I am telling myself if I'm lucky I will not gain the holiday 10 and I hope to keep it under control... its just a learning process... I wish you all the best. Ronie
    2931 days ago
    I didn't realize that the Avon Walk was so BIG!

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    I'm not at the twirling ring stage yet but I hope to one day this spring! emoticon

    Congrats on all your hard work - you are amazing!
    2931 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/11/2010 4:29:51 PM
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