Just a lot of rambling about stuff!!!
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Hello everyone! I just have a lot of small things running through my mind today so thought I would try a blog to get them all out!
So far this week has been so much better then last. Of course we have not been as busy so I'm not as stressed out. But I maintained my positive outlook here. I refuse to let anything BF does or doesn't do to effect my moods too! (that is key) But surprise surprise...when I am being more positive he tends stop doing the things that irritate me anyway. Funny how that happens. I think re-starting my yoga has helped a lot too. 3 days in a row now. My arms and shoulders are feeling it, all those push-ups into downward facing dog are working some muscles.
As for weight...well now this one is bugging the crap out of me. I'm also a little worried. So I'm taking action now. About 8 weeks ago I got to my lowest....129.5. The next week I had crept up to 130.2 or something. For weeks now it's been up as high as 135. This week on weigh in day I was at 133.2. Now I know that this is not a lot. But as we all know, those first few pounds can creep on and we don't think anything about it until we are back at 30 pounds heavier and wonder what happened. The thing is I am wondering what is happening. At first I thought it was water weight. Like too much salt that week, or maybe TOM. But if it was that then the weight should go back down too. Well it's not. I am taking control before I look up and I am at 165 again. NEVER!!! But here is the thing, I am not over eating. I'm not binging, eating fat, cheese, fried foods. I'm not enjoying buffets, ice cream, cake anything!! I have basically stuck with the same foods I've been eating all along. When I snack it is usually with fruit. The most fattening thing I have around is peanut butter and I don't eat more then a tbls at a time. But I am re-evaluating. Something in this picture is not working. So today I went back to oatmeal for breakfast and subway for lunch. Going to eat chicken and veggies for dinner. I'm going back to basics for a few weeks to see if I can get back down to at least 130. I have not been tracking my food as diligently as I should, but like I said I'm not out there eating McDonalds either. I think I might be over judging my portions again or something. But anyway, like I said I am going back to basics for a few weeks and seeing if that helps. It's also got to help that I am done with my work out vacation and am back to doing something physical almost daily. I have faith that it will work but also know I am not going to let myself get back there again!
I also finally got my information to do the Avon Walk!! Wow there is so much info there! I'm super worried about the fund raising! I sent out a preliminary email to mostly my family and my BF's family and a few friends, letting them know I was going to do this and that I would need support ect. I thought I would at least get an email from someone saying wow, that is awesome. Or we'll make sure to donate before April. Or something. NOT ONE response. Not even from my mother! And I hadn't told her yet. So not sure if it's the fundraising, everyone deleted the message, or no one thinks I can do this or what??? It has truly hurt my feelings. I'm not going to push it a lot though till after the first of the year. I just really wanted some WTG's or something though, some form of recognition!!
I am going to put up a jar here and ask for donations at the shop. Maybe I'll start getting something in. As for the training, wow!!! I have 27 weeks or so until the walk. So I am doing the 24 week training program for the 39 mile walk. It starts off pretty good. 14 miles a week at first for a month, then it slowly creeps up until one week I am walking 42 miles. That is going to be tough. I guess no tougher then the actual walk will be. The cool thing is that during the week it is basically like my schedule already is. It will be the weekend walks that will start increasing and being difficult. But I think since I am starting so early that I can really build up to it and be fine.
Well I'm going to quit rambling now! But I have one thing to leave you with. Don't you just love it when your rings spin on your fingers now?? It reminds me how far I have come!! Love to twirl the rings....LOL!!!
You all have an amazing day!!!!