Perfectionism is the enemy.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Sunday, the 7th, I completed taking back my "art studio" from the clutter that has taken over my spare room. I completed a project of organizing the closet and getting rid the mound of boxes that had taken over the room.
I know that I am so looking forward to doing art projects again after a five year absence. But as I looked at the clean large empty table looking at me, I felt an old unwelcome feeling taking hold. It is the fear of making mistakes, not being perfect, and as a result of being "less than".
It is a conditioned feeling and one that I have been fighting with for over half my life. (It took a long time for me to realize that it was a problem.) Whenever I have been able to let go of it, I have REALLY enjoyed drawing, painting, and whatever artwork project I have been working on.
I had let a lot of those feelings go; however, in 2005, I took training to work again as a bookkeeper. My work life became involved in being precise & accurate. The left side of my brain took over and my Perfectionism tendencies took over again.
I have a favorite quote & I need to remember it. It is "Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralizing." by Harriet Braiker. I found the quote on a page a day colander.