Let's face it: I will never have time for exercise.

Sunday, November 07, 2010

Yesterday was a beautiful day. As I walked outside in my gym shorts and t-shirt, I noticed the beautiful 65 degree temperature on the thermometer and smiled in spite of myself. I was headed toward a Team in Training information meeting (more on that later). Now, it's strange, I thought to myself, that I'd be going to the meeting in workout gear. Contrary to the beliefs of some there, I was not going in my workout gear to look hardcore and to show those there that I have what it takes to run a marathon (and for the record, yes I DO have what it takes to run a marathon). I was, in fact, wearing my striped Adidas shorts, technical top, and mismatched (name brand wise) Nike shoes as motivation to hurry my buns to the gym after the meeting.

I started thinking about how silly I looked. And yes, before you even think it, I think about the way people perceive me way too much (a tragic downfall, if you will). In that thinking, I learned a few things about myself.

1. I will never have time for exercise.
2. I will never love exercise that makes me hobble like I'm 90 years old.
3. I will always have to fight the evil fat girl inside me who would rather sit at home on the couch and watch television than do some sort of physical activity.

Wait! Before you feel like dragging me out to some remote location and stoning me, let me respond to each of those things. Because, as you can imagine, not only did I learn those things, but I reflected upon what they each mean for me and my goals in life, as well.

1. I will never have time for exercise.

It's true. I won't. My life is so jam packed full of things that need to be done, people that need my attention, bills that need to be paid, homework that needs to be completed, dishes that need to be washed, laundry that needs to be folded, and a myriad of other life activities, that I just don't have the stinking time to plan out my meals or to exercise. This is a fact. Is it an excuse? Heck to the no! As I was driving to that meeting yesterday, I realized that though there isn't time for exercise, it's well time that I make time for myself. And to keep my body healthy and happy, exercise HAS to be a part of my daily routine. Do I have the time for it? I'll say it again, there's a bigger chance that hell would freeze over. Do I make time for it? Darn straight I do: because I'm worth it.

2. I will never love exercise that makes me hobble like I'm 90 years old.

Climbing out of the booth at Red Robin last night, I think even my 64 year old mother-in-law was moving faster than me. Good Lord! Strength training kicks my rear like one wouldn't believe. This past week, though, I've really been thinking about this. Strength training HAS to be a part of my healthy regimen. Cardio also HAS to be a part of my healthy regimen. And since I've actually been working out this week and have strength trained three times, I've learned that the hurt is good. Every time I laughed and felt the pain sear through my worked-out abs this week, every time I was forced to climb the stairs from my basement lair to the next level up, every time I stretched my arms overhead in an attempt to loosen up my tight muscles, I repeatedly said, "Ahhh! It hurts so good!" And it's true, it does! To feel that kind of response from my body is AWESOME!

And so, back to topic. I will never totally love exercise. I will love the benefits I reap from it, but I will never love the immediate feeling I get from it. As a result, I will continue going places in my workout clothes and looking silly. If that's what it takes for me to get to the gym or to go for a run, I will trick the heck out of myself to get there.

3. I will always have to fight the evil fat girl inside me who would rather sit at home on the couch, watch television, and eat three bricks of Top Ramen than do some sort of physical activity.

This is a constant battle. I now understand that I will always have to work at this. I would always rather sit and do nothing when I actually have the opportunity to do so for once, than to do something that requires physical activity. I will continue to have cravings for the food that is not good for me. I will always love cookies. Knowing these things, though, is what will lead me to victory. I can overcome my hardships so long as I understand that I am freaking worth it, always will be, and always have been. Something productive can always be done, and it's hard time I push myself to do it.

This seems a bit odd, but all this thinking has been rather introspective and healing for me. Realizing these things pushes me forward and makes me want to do more for myself and others. What a fantastic feeling!

Now, here's what I learned about Team in Training (TNT).
It's awesome! Signing up for TNT means you commit to raising a certain amount of money for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Cancer Society. In return for raising the money, the coordinators of TNT organize a training/nutrition plan for you to follow to reach a certain goal. At the meeting I went to, they had events such as snowshoeing in Rocky Mountain National Park, triathalon in Hawaii, 1/2 marathons/marathons in Utah, Los Angelos, and Paris. How cool would it be to do a destination run in Paris??? SWEET! I really wanted to do the snowshoeing event, but unfortunately will not be able to do any TNT event this time around. They have group training events every Saturday or Sunday, and unfortunately the snowshoeing group meets on Saturdays about an hour and a half from my house. As such, it would be about 3 hours in drive time to get there and back, so it doesn't really fit into my schedule right now. Of course, I'd love to do a destination run, as well, but with my current homebuying situation, I won't be able to.

Well, Sparkfriends, that was a pretty hefty blog! Hope you enjoyed and/or learned a few things from my introspection. Many hugs!
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    glad to hear you're still around and running. have fun with TNT, even if you can't go to a big event right now.
    3241 days ago
    This is a great blog! You have made fantastic discoveries about yourself, and I have no doubt you have the drive to maintain your weight loss.

    Keep up the good work! emoticon

    - Karen
    3270 days ago
    Great Blog, it shows me you have what it takes to maintain that goal weight of yours! TNT is something I get flyers for, so it was awesome to get more info about it. Wonder if a SF TNT event would be possible in the future! Have a great week, I know you can do this! I am doing ST 3X a week as well! Go SGs! We Rock!
    3270 days ago
  • AMBER281
    Awesome blog. Thanks for sharing!
    3270 days ago
    Awesome blog, Anne! I did ST 3x this week too and was in pain! But I love it. It frees my mind like nothing else.
    3271 days ago
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