I'm too embarassed, I can't show my face!
Saturday, November 06, 2010
I was just filming a vlog but had to stop because I feel too ashamed of myself. And while those blogs are really useful, I feel that I was being really negative in it and that's not going to help me. I have lost this week I feel. I went to the gym this week on Tuesday but NO other day! And the only reason why, was because I didn't plan it in. I need to make a PLAN for next week which I can stick to and feel happy with.
Also, AGAIN, I've not been tracking. Boys and girls, Ladies and Gentlemen, I need a NEW START. This week is my half term break so I have this whole weeek to keep a good diet and do some exercise. Tracking my food at the moment I find really hard. I'm fine when I eat good things, but this feeling of 'being ashamed' also comes about when I track. Like last night I had a curry (which was really good, but I had two helpings) and a beer and the night before a massive chilly con carne which I stuffed myself with. And it doesn't make me happy. I've forgotten about my water intake, I've forgotten about exercise,about everything.
On the up side- I've had a wonderful week with my friends this week. I performed in TWO CONCERTS in the RAH and RFH in London, two of the most TOP LOCATIONS to perform. I've met up with my friends and had a really wonderful time. I'm now also on top of my work and ready to start doing theatre stuff as well. THOSE THINGS ARE SO POSITIVE and the exercise really is the only thing I didn't control this week. I'm still so proud of everything else I have done.
See? That's a better finishing note. Sometimes writing is easier. But here's my mug, so you can have a glimpse of my new turtleneck my mum got me!!!