I'm actually younger than I thought I was
Friday, November 05, 2010
I'm NOT actually younger in the literal sense (although that did happen to my grandmother who found her birth certificate said her birthday was some days different from what she'd always believed).
But, for a long time, I'd been feeling "my age"--feeling tired and achy and putting on pounds and thinking that must be just how it goes now that I'm nearing 40, now that I am 40, now that I'm over 40...
Whenever I complained about my expanding self, my darling husband would say something along the lines of, "well, you're not 20 anymore, and neither am I, but I still think you're [whichever flattering adjective]." And I would again think--well, yeah, guess this is what "not-20" is like.
But, know what? After just over 3 weeks with SparkPeople, I think I might be younger that I thought I was. Or, what I am isn't as tired and creaky as I thought it was. Whichever.
Suddenly, with watching what I eat and actually exercising on a regular basis, I have SO MUCH more ENERGY. And I'm losing those "inevitable" pounds, bit by bit--and having to redefine "inevitable" to myself!
Really, I feel better than I have in a long time.
And along with it, I'm starting to MENTALLY redefine where I am in my life and what's possible for me to accomplish.
I'm not willing to say "40's are the new 20's"--they aren't and I really don't want to be 20 again, I've LEARNED A LOT in the past few decades and I'm really glad I did!
I just think it's time to redefine what that all does and doesn't mean.
I know I'm not going to be able to exercise away my age and I don't want to, I just don't want to feel like I constantly need a NAP!
And now I don't.
What I DID do for a long time was mistake MY OWN CHOICE to be unfit with the INEVITABLE effects of time passing. Some things couldn't change, but fitness, apparently, isn't one of them. Turns out I do have a choice in how fit I am--and I choose feeling good! So there!