okay back to being accountable.....
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
After my week long vacation in the bahamas and eating every day like it was Thanksgiving I am ready! I have not smoked in 2 months and 3 days and feel great. My trainer moved to Utah where she's from and I am working with a new one. I do not have my true goal weight posted as I was setting myself up to slack off but it is 130. My first trainer helped me to lose the first half of my weight and how appropriate that I am now working with a new one and am feeling recharged and up to losing this last 20 pounds.I got a heart rate monitor for my birthday and it is really pushing me during my cardio workouts to another level.
After being in the grips of a binge eating disorder last year I have been a little gun shy with the whole process of losing weight.Namely the diet part of it. I did not let my last trainer direct my eating at all, though I was under the care of a dietician and also still accountable to my previous trainer.I am going to let go of the reigns and accept some guidance from my new trainer as I am no longer seeing my dietician and have been stable as far as the binging goes and it has been a long time. I want to be physically and mentally happy and that means getting closer to my weight goal while not obsessing.Also that means not using my eating disorder as a reason why I should not accept help or am able to reach my goal. I know I can do this one day at a time.