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Joy to the world

Monday, November 01, 2010

I am discouraged. I am tired of numbing out. I am tired of being tired.

So Ms. Half-Full Glass here is trying to find the second half.
Why?

I have lost my joy.

I'd like to say I misplaced it.
My dogs buried it. My ex ran away with it. I hid it from my family along with a bunch of other feelings and now I can't find it. My first love stole it.
Maybe it went hand-in-hand with trust out the door long ago.
You know how they describe a baby as a bundle of joy? I think at some point this bundle was shrink-wrapped.

On the other hand - maybe joy was a bulb I planted in the earth to protect it as it got cold and spring is close at hand.

I find the harder I try to relax and let joy come forth, the more distant, anxious, and tight I feel.

I hear the echo of 'Relax, Sleep tight, Don't let the bedbugs bite!' How can I relax or sleep when they've just announced on the news there is a bedbug epidemic in the US??? Just my luck - lol.

I'm betting my joy is that bulb soon ready to burst though the earth reaching up to the warmth of the sun. It's been winter too long!
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  • SNORFSNORKEL
    I vote for the bulb, hidden and protected, waiting for warmth to emerge.

    I too, am tired of feeling “numb” and tired!

    The more I move and deal with things, the better I feel. As I do, I am making a real effort to think happy thoughts and hum happy songs. I like DBailey and Karen’s idea to write down happy things (”...these are a few of my favorite things”…) There are a ton of songs on YouTube.com, and you can build a playlist – I like some of John Denver’s happy tunes, “Matthew” , “Rocky Mountain High”, etc. Had Leonard Cohen’s “Suzanne” in my head this morning.

    I’m sure that insomnia is contributing to your fatigue – did you see this?

    http://www.sparkpeople.com/
    resource/fitness_articles.asp?i
    d=420

    I'm sure there are more.

    Maybe keeping a journal of evening activities might help you see how to change up your routine – I do mine at 30 minutes increments, one line of a brief item per line.

    Best wishes - Joe emoticon
    3268 days ago
  • KSGROTHE
    I like DBAILEY0438's idea! Another thing I've done recently is to make a list of things I'm grateful for. They can be little things or big things. When I was having trouble sleeping recently, I made a list of my worries followed by a list of things I'm grateful for, and the gratitude list was longer than the worry list!

    Hang in there! emoticon

    - Karen
    3269 days ago
  • DBAILEY0438
    find on thing a day that makes you smile even if you have to look up some jokes on line just one thing then write it down in your journel and each day that you add something reread the others and you will smile and laugh a little longer emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3269 days ago
  • BILL60
    Hang tough!!
    3269 days ago
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