October ~ highs, lows and too many excuses
Sunday, October 31, 2010
October started with a bang -- lots of training to prepare for my black belt test. Sensei and Shihan both gave me a rating of 9 out of 10 for my stamina on the test. Sweet! I was so excited to read that considering the intensity of the test. I know how far I've come there.
Since that day though, I've had too many excuses for why I haven't gone to the gym; the kitchen remodel, kids' sports, job search, etc. I've still been going to Karate twice a week, but I need to get back to doing more. I miss Pilates, swimming and strength training. It's hard to get back into the swing of things though. I need to post the old Nike ad on my mirror: "Just do it!"
Eating habits... well that's been less than stellar as well. I let the kitchen remodel derail my efforts. I'm finding it so hard to get back on track. I haven't been measuring everything or logging every day.
It's affecting the way I feel. I'm irritable and down. I don't know that depressed is the right word, but I just don't feel energized or happy. I'm just there. I miss the way I feel when I eat and exercise properly. I'm just finding it so difficult to stay on track. I'm also getting highly frustrated that I haven't found a job yet. Going from school full time to sitting at home all day is driving me crazy. I need an agenda, something to focus on.
I'm happy to say good-bye to October. I need to set some new goals. I think that may be part of my problem. I achieved my biggest goal (besides weight) this month. Other than striving for weighing less, I need something to work towards.
I need to set some new goals for November. I need to get back to the gym. I enjoy the classes so much; I don't know why I'm avoiding them. I have a coupon for Bed, Bath and Beyond. I think it's time to upgrade my scale. I have a job interview tomorrow ~ hopefully that's a step in the right direction!
I'm so frustrated, it's almost debilitating. I've gained 10 pounds over the last year. I want it off! I did it before, I know I can do it again. I know 10 pounds is nothing compared to what most people are trying to lose; it seems so overwhelming to me. I'd like to lose at least 15 overall.
I know what needs to be done. I just have to throw those excuses out the window and "Just do it!!"