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Jangling, Clutter, and Getting Back to My Self

Thursday, October 28, 2010

October 28, 2010 - wee hours of the morning …

Everything is jangly. My clutter, worry about finance/future, having tv on all the time, violent tv shows, doing three things at once, inability to focus on one thing …

Must unjangle. Must un-clutter. Must clear space and mind. Music. Organization. No candy.

EVERY DAY sit down with journal or tarot and have quiet time with self.

Eating too many grains. Not enough fruits, veggies, nuts and seeds.

A few hours later ...

Chose to do a morning draw with my brand new tarot deck. Hoping to clear my mind of this clutter …

Sun and Moon Tarot

5 of pents. Well, this about covers it. I was up until 5:30 this morning worrying, and "worry" is the key word on the card. It looks like two kids abandoned on a street corner. One sleeping, or crying, or sick. One watching out. I'm a sea of worry these days, and am distracting myself with tv, puzzles, procrastination on what I really need to do to take care of myself.

I drew a second card to ask what this worry can teach me.

4 of cups. Keyword is "luxury" which didn't resonate for me. But after looking at the image awhile I feel that she is about what I'm doing here with tarot. It pictures a woman sitting on a lotus flower under a full moon, and the colors are all cool aqua and white. She holds three cups in her hand and a full one is falling towards her. She looks contemplative, inward, and beautiful. My path, my learning, is to get back to my inner work. To meditate, do tarot, dream. To stop with all the jangly go-go-go, and distractions. To spend quality time with myself instead of distancing myself from my feelings.

What a lovely card!!!
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    I am new to this group & have been practising the "I am the one" exercise. I was going along nicely & out came the following..
    "I am the one who must get off my backside & organise my entire life." Bearing in mind I totally sympathise what you're going thru. Hey it worked I've been decluttering ruthlessly & getting into a great routine housework wise. Next thing is to get my collaging started, I've cut out quite a few pictures so that's a start & I'm sure with that will follow everything else.
    It's very easy to say cheer up & stop worrying & I'm sure if you stop &take another look at yourself you'll see you've been moving forward positively for sometime & continuing to do so. We all have our hiccups take me for instance - reverting to eating uncontrollably. Worrying will always be there as it is for us all. Be unstoppable & nothing will stand in your way of getting what you want. I am starting to take this advice myself.
    Have a good week.
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    Comment edited on: 11/2/2010 11:37:08 PM
    I spent the day trying to organize the paints and art supplies that I brought home from the mountain. I can't work when things are a mess! De cluttering the house, art supplies and my mind brings a sense of calm to me. I hope it works for you too!
    2793 days ago
    I have this book that was given to my father. This book that I keep at my bedside was given to him by my grandfather(his father-in-law). It is called "The Magic of Believing" by Claude M Bristol. The strangest thing is that I have not read it until this last summer. I was getting to the point of losing sleep too and was always worrying about the stresses at work and home. My husband was over the road trucker at the time so I was home alone most of the time. Well, I read this and it sure did help me with the "power of positive thinking". I was wasting so much time worrying and it was just a waist of time and energy. I found that if I had a bad night of worrying, I would pick up the book and read a few pages. Later I was able to go to bed knowing that with positive thinking, things will work out. Negative thinking draws on think on the positive! I am glad that I finally picked up the book and read it. My family consists of 8 children which I know that this book has to have helped him when we were growing up. It was addressed to my dad on Christmas 1954. A year after I was born. This book is a blessing... emoticon

    2794 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/30/2010 2:31:38 PM
    Don Aslett, the famous/notorious professional authority on cleaning house says, "Clutter Causes Confusion!"

    Now, I believe that, but it's still hard to get rid of it!

    BUT I haven't had the TV on for months, so THAT has helped with the mental clutter, anyway.
    2795 days ago
    I can sympathize on the need to de-jangle, de-clutter, and de-stress. I've been wound so tight. I have been staking claims to at least some evenings and getting away from the computer to read or craft--activities I find relaxing. Also I'm re-exploring meditation again. Maybe something like that will help you? You make such beautiful quilts; maybe even sitting down quilt for 30 minutes or something will help you unwind.

    You made me want to pull out my tarot cards, which I haven't touched in a long time. For me at least, tarot was never about divination, but I had read that the cards could be used as a tool to connect to your sub conscious and that's how they work for me. When I'm wrestling with problems, they can be useful in teasing out the problem and why it's stressing me out--how I really feel and therefore what to do about it.
    2795 days ago
    Decluttering is a good idea--I may follow your lead!
    2795 days ago
    Sounds like you are on your way.
    Sending good thoughts to assist in your inner search.
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    2796 days ago
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