Monday, October 25, 2010
It's official. I've been fooling myself.
I've been thinking that I can eat without much restraint, eat things that are not very healthy, use food to damp down emotional states...and still either lose weight or remain stable. That is obviously not true. I am at 170 pounds, which is 12 pounds up from my lowest weight -- and 14 pounds away from my Spark starting weight in June 2009.
Here's the dilemma:
The truth is I don't WANT to restrict myself.
And the truth is that I don't WANT to be fat and lumpy.
Those are two incompatible truths. I must choose.
I know I will be happier and healthier in the long run if I choose to bring some better structure into my eating life.
I'm a little bit ashamed about having gained this weight and having not changed my eating habits for "long term good." I also know I'm not the only person to have fallen into this hole and had to pull herself (or himself) out again. There is nothing for it but to start again.
Here's what I know works for me – which is what I’m committed to doing:
Habits of body and mind:
Start getting read for bed at 9:30 p.m. Brush teeth, take vitamins, etc.
Meditate for at least 15 minutes before bed.
Be in bed by 10:30 p.m.
Get up by 7 a.m.
Do at least one physical thing per day – walk, dance, yoga – for at least half hour.
Diligently track my food. Remember my tools for getting over "humps": Planning! Fresh fruit! Chewing gum! Kombucha! Water! Tea! A quick walk!
And, this is big: STOP EATING SUGAR.
For me, sugar is a drug. It is not healthy for my mind, since it creates “quick fix” for situations that require more than that. It is not healthy for my body since not only does it add empty calories, it also creates cross-linkages in collagen, which lead to more WRINKLES and sagging skin!! Not a good bargain.
I also commit to telling at least one person a day for one week that I am going to lose the weight I put on.
My process goals are paramount. I trust that my outcome goals will come in due time. I am aiming to stabilize at between 160 (summer weight) and 165 (winter weight).
Send me success energy.
I will be sending you success energy, too!