As I stood on the scale this morning after my shower and saw that 1 in front of my number...I couldn't believe it!
Of course, I had no one to share my excitement with because my husband is at work, my sons are still sleeping, so I quickly turn to the SP world.
I know some of you out there know how important it is to get below the 200's. It has been a nagging goal of mine since 2007. Of course I had a second child in that 3 year time, but I vowed to get back at it after he was born in March of 2008.
What makes this so special is that I have come so close to it almost 3 separate times since March 2008. I have even gotten down to 201 and let it slip through my fingers only to go back up to 217 pounds a short 6 months later.
I couldn't sleep last night very well - too much swirling through my brain I guess. I got on here to look at my past pictures and I was amazed at how I let myself slip back and forth so many times.
I know it is because I never fully resolved my feelings of loss and depression from losing my mother in January 2008 and then a short 6 weeks later had my son. I thought I was "dealing" with it, but then 18 months after the fact - it hit me soooo hard. The summer of 2009 was very tough on me.
Pretty much since January 2010 I've really grown mentally, emotionally and my son has grown up too. 2010 has been slow at times reaching my goals, but I've not given up entirely during those times. The thing is, I haven't really changed clothing sizes yet - even after losing 23 pounds. I've pretty much stayed the same size XL/L shirt, Size 16/18 jeans...but they fit a lot better.
I really need to take some measurements soon and compare from March 2010 to now because I know they have got to be different. My pants feel looser around my waist especially.
I would love to have a goal of 190 by Christmas. It is a steep goal. It is a challenging goal, but I am up for the challenge. We go to Georgia every year between Christmas and New Year's and I would love to be able to surprise them by being 30 pounds lighter.
Maybe I'll blog later with some before and after photos too! I need something that I can refer back to when I am feeling down and unmotivated.
Off to take some photos this Saturday morning!!!
Thanks SP friends!