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Saturday, October 23, 2010

I've decided to hide my ticker for awhile. I've been staying steady or gaining for at least a month now, and all it does is induce guilty feelings.

I've been craving chocolate. Every day.

I'm changing my depression meds (with doctor's guidance), and am going through some reactions.

I'm also having reactions to my artwork.

During this transition I need to focus on the positives, and not let myself get too bummed out by the negatives. Feeling teary for no apparent reason. It's hard.

It's a weird time for me. My mind is chaotic, sad, foggy.

Tomorrow I'm helping transport four greyhounds to their foster homes. They're coming north from Florida, and are going to a group in the Poconos in Pennsylvania. I'm doing a "leg" from Virginia to northern Maryland. I'll be in the car for at least six or seven hours, and am looking forward to it. Perhaps some time in the car with no pressure to do anything else will help me focus on me and my feelings and health. I want a day with no pressure. Just me, dogs, and helping out.
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  • 1888MICHELLE
    Can you indulge in the chocolate without over indulging? I found that if I could hold off until 7 in the evening, then I could reward myself with a piece of good, rich, dark chocolate. I would recommend the Dove dark in the individually wrapped pieces.
    2732 days ago
  • MTS1957
    Wishing you a safe journey with the pups. We can all use a little quiet "me time" every now and then.
    2734 days ago
    That makes sense. If the tracker isn't helping, and in fact is being counterproductive, than hide it.

    Best of luck with your new meds. I know that changing meds can be a difficult transition sometimes, but I hope the new meds help a lot!

    I hope the car ride is just what you need! long car rides can be relaxing--just you, the road, some music maybe, and the dogs. Good of you to help out with getting the dogs to their new homes. That's great.
    2734 days ago
    I hope you have a good trip! It seems reasonable that you are craving chocolate -- you are craving something to help you feel differently. I hope your journeys bring you to a good discovery or two!
    2735 days ago
    My way to get around the ticker thing is to just not track the weight. Oh well. I kind of like the idea of hiding it, so I could go ahead and enter the information.

    Hope the change in medications helps.

    2735 days ago
    Maybe the ride is just what you needed. Hope things become more positive for you. Have a safe trip and take care. Better days are just around the corner... emoticon
    2735 days ago
  • -SHE-WOLF-
    i can sooooo relate to everything you have written Gryff, i'm off to the Docs on Monday to get my meds changed for depression, i've been feeling a lot like you have. Mine has been going on for too long now and i find things getting too much for me these past months.

    You just take care of yourself and give thise dogs a wee hairy (((((hug))))) from me, that's my (((((hug))))) to you.
    2735 days ago
  • POSEY440
    What ever helps you with keeping it up. emoticon
    2735 days ago
    Oh yeah, chocolate................
    2735 days ago
    Sounds like superb therapy to me.
    My massage therapist says that fall is a chaotic time of change and it's natural to feel scattered. She 'grounded' me in my zero balance session and it really helped me.
    Hope the pups and your gift to them and their adoptive families helps you feel more grounded.
    2735 days ago
    Have a safe journey and enjoy the quiet time emoticon
    2735 days ago
    Take care of yourself. We are here for you. Enjoy your day with the dogs.
    2735 days ago
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