Tuesday, October 19, 2010
So how is your journey going? Are we having fun or is it more as if the kids in the back seat asking, “Are we there yet? Are we there yet?” Yea for the former of the two, otherwise, we have all had those days, weeks, months, and sometimes years.
Today was the first day of my second year after returning to SparksPeople from a hiatus that never should have happened. Several days ago I mentioned this fact and began to ponder, as I often do. We procrastinators ponder well. (That sounds a lot like the start of a cheer!) During my musing I thought about the dynamic changes in my life from the journey thus far and where I was several years ago at my all time high of 314 pounds. Seems a shame to think how disrespectful of my time and my gifts I had become. So true to form, today, I get out the critic stick and beat myself for not making the most of the opportunities at hand.
During a team interview with a Fortune 500 company yesterday, I congratulated myself for the control I showed during the day. No doughnuts in the morning meetings at two locations and a very controlled lunch were a perfect tribute to a better me. Later during the afternoon, I ate a doughnut to gain a bit of energy while contemplating a problem. The sugar rush almost put me in orbit. Immediately after I ate it I thought, “That was stupid.” Thus, I managed to foil a perfect no hitter for the day.
I salvaged a win by staying under my top end of 1850 calories with 1816 (1697, 1839, and 1795 today for those whom are counting for the week). Again, I see much room for improvement. Over the last four days, I have managed to maintain my lowered target range while continuing to exercise at a good clip. Here is the rub.
The 747 calories over the minimum represent 0.2 pounds of potential loss I should have taken advantage. Alas, what is past is past; the seal of time is upon my actions. I shall do better for the rest of the week. Furthermore, if I keep flirting with the high end, I will certainly exceed my range in another stupid moment. Life is full of those.
I shall keep this lesson foremost in my thoughts to remind me to be mindful of the little things. Yes, I am within my range, but to leave a weekly rate of 1300 calories on the table is a shame. It represents a 1/3 of a pound for the week. I am not down on myself for this fact, because that is what ranges are for. Rather I feel like the pink bunny beating a drum. I keep going and going and going!
Here is to year two!
Be at Peace