I need prayers and lots of them

Monday, October 18, 2010

I didn't have a good weekend at all, its along story but because I feel you are a great friends I will tell you. We have a guy that is living in our basement well we also live in a house that is made into 2 apartments well we have a new person living next to us and the guy that is living with us had 2 girls over he was fighting with me and my husband were worried that the new guy would call the cops and being my hubby is on parole he could of went to jail. So I went down there and now that I think about it I know I went about it all wrong but I told them that they weren't the only ones in the house and that they needed to shut up well the guy started yelling at me and told me basically where I could go and Kris (my hubby) got mad because he wanted me to tell the guy would you please be quiet well after that he got mad at me and told me he wanted to get a divorce, this hasn't been the first time he has told me this he has told me 2 other times as well and we made up. Well the first time I found out he asked someone that was suppose to be a friend of mine if they would be with him she said no we ended making up and getting back together then 2 weeks ago we were "apart" again and the day we made up he told me he "fooled" around with someone but all they did was kiss well this time we are not back together yet and I dont know if we are going to be because he told me the day I left to my sisters which was the same day all this fighting happend he slept with someone else. That broke my heart into a million pieces, I am up north at my grandmas right now and I don't know when I will be back home if I even will. I will let you know when I know. I love him to death but he keeps hurting me. I want to make things right but I know if I get back with him again alot of people will be really mad at me and disapointed in me for letting him do this to me. I pray every night to God to guide me in the right direction. This is all in his hands what he makes happens will happen. I just will have to deal with whatever comes along. I want to make it work but my stobborn husband doesn't want to but he has said that before too so I don't know whats going to happen at the moment. I will be on here more often when I am here at my grandmas though. Sorry to put all this out there I just wanted to explain why I wasn't having the best weekend. Please pray for me I need it all. Thanks and take care. GOD BLESS
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    I would advise you stay with your grandma, you do not need this and you deserve better.
    3815 days ago
    You are a very good person and I'm not sure that your husband deserves you. I have to agree with your friends and family. Do you want a lifetime of this?
    3818 days ago
    I will keep you in my prayers emoticon
    3830 days ago
    No one deserves to be treated the way he is treating you. He will continue to do what he does. The only behavior you can control and change is yours. Stay with your Grandmother and heal. Emotional abuse is dangerous for you and causes wounds that are unseen. Take care of yourself and find some peace. You love him but it does not sound like he loves you. He is using you. don't let him any more. Surrounding you with thoughts and prayers. emoticon
    3830 days ago
    I am so sorry you are going through this but glad you are at your Grandmother's right now. You do deserve better than this man, he doesn't deserve you. For him to be unfaithful to you so many times is unforgivable. Don't keep putting yourself through this with him, he isn't worth it.

    Haven't heard from you in so long, I'm sorry I haven't been a better Spark friend to you.

    Hugs and love,
    3830 days ago
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    I too will pray. BUT....why don't you think you deserve more?? Better?? You are WORTHY of respect and love and clearly you are not getting it. So tell him not to let the door hit him in the ass and BELIEVE that you will find real love. HUGS!!
    3830 days ago
    My prayers are with you. Be true to yourself and think about counseling for yourself.
    3830 days ago
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    hi Samanthaleahe
    once a cheater always a cheater it has happened to me several times but i want married thank God but it still hurt and i was the one that always got hurt so my best advise to you if leave and dont look back, Only you can decide to want to keep taking him back but my advice is to go ahead on your own, its hurts like heck but in the long run you will be more happier and dont have to worry if he is out cheating when he isnt home it will drive you crazy and stressed out and you will want to know who she is and the big thing is WHY did you do this to me??
    I will keep you in my prayers sparks mail me if you want to talk anymore .I learned the hard way. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3835 days ago
    I have walked in shoes similar to your situation you describe, You however are the only one walking in your shoes. You make Your choices & decisions, You will be the one living with the consequences of your choices. I will surround you with prayers, I will pray you make the loving choices for You, You deserve better than a cheater. You deserve to be loved for the beautiful wonderful person you are. God is in the quiet moments, let him help you. emoticon emoticon
    3837 days ago
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    Sweetie, I will keep you in my prayers
    3838 days ago
  • TINYC887
    he isnt going to change and you need to decide what you want, if you really want to be with him then maybe counseling, if not then know you are strong and can make it. good luck.
    3838 days ago
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    You've got to love yourself MORE than any other person at this point if you're going to get through this - you are being emotionally abused and this is simply not acceptable! I cringe whenever I hear stories from other women who lament their love while describing horrific stories.......please hang in there and stay strong......I'm especially concerned that you're involved with a man with legal issues - would hate to see you get dragged down in that drama as well.....

    I will keep you in my best thoughts!


    3839 days ago
    I am so sorry you have to ride on this particular roller coaster. I will pray for you also.
    3839 days ago
    Will keep you in my prayers and whatever you decide--stay in school, don't give up your dreams--not even for a man. My opinon is that he cheated and will do again and again. Don't put yourself through it. You love him , but sometimes love is just not enough. I agree with Kelley106. emoticon and saying prayers.
    3839 days ago
    You are in my prayers. Stay strong and know that God is ever watchful and holds you in his healing hands even when we can't always feel his presence.
    3839 days ago
  • KELLEY106
    I will pray for you .
    I do have an opinion. Bite the bullet, cry your eyes out and move on. He has said he doesn't want you, why set yourself up for more hurt. Your worth more then that. what does your grandma think? Older people are often wiser.
    3839 days ago
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    I will keep you in my prayers.
    3839 days ago
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