A tough day....

Monday, October 18, 2010

I had put in for this promotion a month or so ago. I am qualified, have the required amount of experience.. even a little more. They gave me the job 2 weeks ago for about and hour and a half, then took it back and said that they had to interview a few people for paper puropses but that I was going to get it. I told myself not to get too excited but it is someonething that I love doing and so ofcorse I started coming up with so many cool ideas about how I could better the Quality of Life for my residents. Then they called me today and said that, after telling me yesterday that corperate was on board with giving the job to me, they then called back later today and told me that they can not give me the job BUT, I can work as the aide for this position at a lower pay rate than I make now...

So, needless to say, I was upset. I was crying more so because I was angry that they lead me on and what did I go after... I went after the 3 musketters bars, and the snikers, and the milky ways... but I stopped short when I saw myself in the reflection of the china cabinet. I stopped and looked at myself and reminded myself that I lost 5lbs this week and just because I am sad and upset, if I eat those candy bars, I am going to be even more upset than I was at that time.

So I took a couple of deep breaths, realized that it was their loss and that they would regret not letting me take that position. That I am special, special, so special, special, I got to have some of your attention, give it to me.... I heard that on the radio after I put the candy bars

So, after my small breakdown, and my peptalk, I decided to go for a walk.. and ended up walking for 5 and I felt so much better. When I started walking I was still upset and was having a hard time keeping it together. By the second mile, I was smiling and talking to my BF on the phone. By mile 3, I was thinking about all the ways that I can find the type of job and do the type of work that in the long run will make me happy. Dont get me wrong, I love what I do, but I want to get into a position that will help me make the Quality of Time they are with us better for them.

So, now I feel so much better about myself all in all because not only did I lose that weight this past week, but I stopped myself from eating the candy bars PLUS I went walking for a while. It might have been crappy, but it turned out pretty well.
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  • PLATAS0827
    not really only because I have held this job before and they were happy with me but then we had budget cuts so I was let go. Plus, the woman who did all this is worse off than I am because she can barely make it 15 feet, literally, without having to stop and take a breather. But, I'm doing great so thats all that
    3106 days ago
    GOOD for you and you are right it was their loss. Do you feel it may have something to do with the stigma still attached to our condition?
    3107 days ago
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