Monday, October 18, 2010
Well....I actually feel like I am back on track. I had put some of weight back on over the past couple of months. Last week I simply stayed in range and walked between 2.5-5 miles each day and I lost 4 pounds.....even with TOM!! I went for a 6 mile walk this morning...when I started I had only planned on about 2.5 miles. But it was an absolutely beautiful morning here and I had no where else to be so I took full advantage of this opportunity!!
My beloved grandmother passed away a little less than a month ago. On top of that,I had a HUGE health scare almost 2 weeks ago. I found a lump in my breast....and I have heavy family history of breast cancer. I was completely freaked out. One thing I kept thinking about was the fact that if it was the worst of the worst, I was going to have to go on a steroid for a couple of years. My mom gained a lot of her weight from that and I have had bad luck with steroids and weight gain in the past. I was really kicking myself for not taking better care of myself and having a healthier lifestyle. Most times, this would have been my excuse to take yet another break from my healthy lifestyle and simply gorge my feelings of being so scared into the first piece of chocolate cake I could find. Instead....I decided to get my butt off the couch and actually attempt to take CONTROL over my own body. I started from that moment and have actually done pretty well. My test results came back last week and they were NEGATIVE!! YAY! I have never been so relieved! Any other time I would have thought that it was celebration time and pigged out. But I didn't and I kept on going...especially with the awesome weight loss last week.
I think over the past couple of weeks, I just needed to take a step back and re-evaluate how I was doing things, because it definitely WASN"T working!!! I have a 6 year old daughter, lately she has been obsessed with fat and skinny. So we have turned those words into NAUGHTY words in our home. We only are allowed to say Healthy or Unhealthy. She is way too young to be even thinking the words skinny and fat!!
I went on a date with dh on Saturday night. We figured out where we were going to go and I got online and looked through their menu and nutritional information and picked my dinner before I even left the house. I just need to be prepared! I am just going to continue to do my best and keep a positive attitude. I know that I am going to mess up...plenty I am sure! But when I slip, I just need to forgive myself and dive right back in! Maybe this will be the year I can actually get out of the 150s!!
Have a BEAUTIFUL Monday Sparkers!!